Mood:  down

This is the email I sent to Jay...it's self-explanatory you'll get exactly how I felt and what I mean and possibly what I am going to do just by reading the email!

 Love could never be a good thing because you can put so much into and never get nothing out of it...and it most certainly isn't justified and you never know when it is true! I knew I should have just went on letting my last "love" relationship dictate my futures supposed-to-be ones because it's only from experience that you know what's best for you and what's not...Jay you said that you never been in love so you didn't know the feeling and you wanted to know it I guess....but you are not feeling that~in my opinion~you can't possibly love somebody that you say stuff like "we don't ever have to see each other again" or "we don't never have to talk again"...and that saying 'words will never hurt' is so untrue because you'll never know how I felt when you said those things to me. Remember when you said that you will never do anything to hurt me...that was sort of a lie...you didn't do anything but your words is bad enough. How can I stay in a relationship like this,where time an!
d time again something goes very wrong between us,aren't we so predictable?!You say you love me,but how much??You really need to think about that...I don't want you to answer it because I think I already know! You don't love me,you only like me alot~if that much~...Never again will I ever feel this way!