Mood:  irritated

Omg I don't even freakin' care how I type this time because I am just so paranoid at the fact that Davontay doesn't want to be with me...he has a girlfriend! Who could possibly surpass me when it comes to being in a relationship, you suppose to look for happiness and when guys are in relationships with me they are always happy so he should just dump that girl....I sound selfish and arrogant but so what! This is how I feel right now, I am so enraged by this whole situation and very devastated! I mean like, I might have waited for too long to come back to him so he moved on but so what!! And so what that I am with Jay right now...when the going gets rough I just have to find a way out...and Davontay was my way out atleast I thought-but NO he is with some other girl! He should be happy that I chose him of all the guys I could have possibly picked in that school,with his ungracious self! I hate him! No I don't mean that,I just hate that he doesn't want to be with me...when will I be able to get my way...I wont dare go to Marquise..he knows too much about me for one and would know that I am cheating on him but Davontay has no knowledge of my life outside of school so he couldn't possibly know that he was being played unless one of my friend would tell~and I highly doubt that~I am just so mad! I was about to cry but you know what??Never will I cry over something like that,he's a great guy and all but his unibrow is UGLY! Oh my Goodness I didn't mean that...I don't want to trash talk him because I can't get my way...but he made me so frustrated! I even ripped up the poem I wrote him asking him to be my boyfriend...I like totally wasted my time writing that for him...not once have the thought of him being involved in a relationship crossed my mind...I should have thought before I put that destructive plan into action! I don't know what to do now...I can't even talk to him anymore because I might just get so mad that I treat him...so when I see him in the hallways or afterschool I aint going to even acknowledge him, smile at him, or even look his way...and if he speaks to me I will just wake and rush away! He makes me so sick!

Fast Fact: I called Akeem and apologized to him yesterday for cutting off connections with him and I don't think I want to be with Jay anymore nothing is the same!

~Hate People and Life~
Princess