Mood:  a-ok

aw and i dont mean too put it all in yo face but u kno u made a big mistake by leavin me the way u did and now i understand how u felt when u said that i wud never get back wit u and how u moved on and shit without me u had a new boyfriend and everting but thanx 4 movin on cuz that encouarged me to move on 2 i tried to wait but i guess it was too long of a wait so i moved on myself i got a new girl finally i really like her im kinda in love but i dont mean to make u feel bad or nothin im jus thankin u cuz u made me wake up and really kno wat love is u introduced me to a real relationship and i wud never 4get u 4 that u made me more serious and mature i was in love wit u i wanted to spend the rest of my life wit u but u did me wrong and not to make u mad but like u told me dont say u love me say how u really feel cuz i kno u dont love me so dont say it cuz that is a strong word that means alot to sum ppl and when u tell me that u love me it brings up memories that i dont wanna remember it only bring up the times when u did me wrong so jus do me a favor and dont say u love me u made a mistake and u kno i thought i wud never get this feelin but honestly i dont love u no more i kno after u read this message u gone be real mad and probably not gone want to talk to me no mo but i hope u take this the rite way write back aight i jus wanna kno hoew u feel...........so i wud end this letter with a thank you 4 breaking my heart and leavin me u woke me up thanks demetria

well actually I am not mad at all in a way I am glad that you told me how you feel because honestly I did a self-check...and I wasnt in love with you just in strong like because when I am truly in love I would cry over the guy for months and be stuck on him which seems like forever and I did neither when we broke up so no I wasnt in love~I think I am now though because only this guy and my last love could make me cry every time I think of them and what went wrong but still feel it in my heart that I love him and just cant move on~although me and the guy hasnt broken up yet...I still cry because he just sometimes makes me sad but in a way its not so bad because I know that atleast I have really strong feeling for him that are ever so tru~...I hope that this girl you are with treats you right and you two share a long-lasting relationship with "true" love thats full of happiness and joy and I pray that no pain or tears come you two way...but if you ever need a friend when times get unbearable and you need somebody to talk to over the phone or sit and talk to you....you can always count on me! p.s~when I told you on the last message that I loved you I didnt mean in love with you I meant love as though a friend would love 'family-love'