Mood:  down

10-31-07 was the day you stepped in and how foolish it was of me to think I could turn a flirt into a faithful guy! I knew exactly what I was getting myself into and yet I still got with you and put myself into this predicament! I can't believe that I feel in love with you,I hate that I love you! But I do! And I just got this feeling that you don't love me as much as I love you,it keep coming to me that you're cheating everytime I think about you...and I don't think that I am wrong either because it's a reoccuring thought...You said you would never cheat but how do I know what you do when I am not around?? I don't know what I should do...then you talked about how its like you was thinking about moving on when we stopped talking...that was bogus but I aint tripping! I think I am slowly falling out of love with you...then you had the nerves to say that you are happy that people thinking we are not together! You so stupid....I really hate you...

Maybe I should go with Matt besides he has a job~well Jay do too but he act like he don't when he always asking me for stuff (I feel as though he's a gold digger)~But Matt is so sweet and a real gentleman...I really like him and he's not like any other boy because even though he likes me he still want me and Jay to work out and even volunteered to help us!

I like Aaron alot too...he's so cute and has very pretty eyes! Me and him is going to kick it together on Wednesday...I think I am going to need that before I got to church and have to deal with Jay! Plus I think that even if Jay makes me mad I am going to be high in the sky if everything goes right with Aarom...he owes me a kiss~I wonder how that will be if it happens~...I really want to be with him but also trying to see how far me and Jay will go and for how long! I am trying to loose him now but I don't know how he really feel so whatever!

Fast Fact: I called Davontay last night to apologize,but he didn't answer,,,it was kind of late when I called anyways though/ When I seen him at school he was right by me and usually I would say hey but instead I quickly moved away from him and walked a different way!

~Ummmm....~

Princess