Mood:  lucky

Well I am most definately feeling better about me and Jay relationship. But I don't know how long it will be until I log back on and write that we are back to being bad!! We had a pretty nice talk and said we loved each other plentiful times today...and how much we miss each other...I told my friend this and I meant it~if I don't get nothing for Christmas all I would want was for me and Jay to go back to how we used to be~!! When you fall in love like the way I am then other things don't matter except being with that person and being happy with them! I could die by tomorrow but that wouldn't matter as long as me and Jay are good...I know that may sounds stupid but that's how much I love him...with all my heart and my heart isn't big enough so with my soul also~~...!!!Now all I need to do is tell him this...I got to get over my fear of telling a person how I feel because the thought that they might not feel the same way~right now it's not even about how he feel I just want to let him to know how much I love him and how much I mean it everytime I tell him that~words can't even explain it but I still have to tell him something!!I would like if he feel the same way but if he don't then that don't matter all that matters is if he cares about how I feel about him!! The times we hardly talked was like the worst times of my life...I can't explain how I feel...depressed aint even the word for it!!

Fast Fact: I went shopping for his gift yesterday and saw Patrice! I am soo excited Christmas is one day away!!Keunna coming over later in the day so we can have a girls night in!~

~SOOOOO In Love~

Princess