Mood:  down

It's like I am not even living life..all I do is go to school, home, homework, computer, and sleep....then wake up to do it all over again!!! I just hate that I am less than life because it makes me feel worthless and less valuable than all things, objects, and people living. Jermel used to make me happy but that only lasted for a short period of time so now I am back to being me I guess~dull and dead inside~....I like this one guy at school but he may think I am too young for him.

His name is Dan and he is a junior and by me being freshman that isn't a good mix~2 grade difference mean alot~so I guess I just have to leave him out as an option. But he just makes me smile alot every time I see him or hear his name. True! H e may not be the cutest thing walking earth but that matters less~he is the only thing walking earth that makes me feel happy inside out...and that's what matters most to me.I wish I could tell him but if he don't feel the same way about me then I'd be putting myself out there and now is not the time for all that~I just couldn't bare the depression. One girl named Carolyn thinks we would make a cute couple but I don't know about that....the age again!!!

I also like this other guy named Marquise but not as much as I like Dan.He is the guy I am going to homecoming with~one thing I am definately looking forward to and also the JROTC lock-in.

Fast Fact: I am about to break-up with Jermel~I think~

~Depressed~

Princess