Mood:  lucky

You can never control what happens in a relationship all you can ever do is to try and prevent it but what is the point of that...believe in "let go and let flow"...I am now learning that. Whatever happened in the past shouldn't dictate my future. Jay was right I am letting C.J control my relationship without him even talking to me!  But now I am brand new after me and Jay conversation tonight...I'll never find love if I can't let go of C.J's even when I know that he's no loner mines...I will not deny that I still love him~I believe it in my heart that I do~but the question is do he feel the same way too!? I wont linger on the question for too long because that doesn't matter the most important thing at the moment is trying to build this love with Jay. He told me today that he was in love with me but I couldn't tell him the same and I just know it's all C.J's doing but no more does this matter...I will fall in love with Jay and that's a fact.

Fast Fact: Me,Jay,and Merisha went to see This Christmas Wednesday and me and Jay tongue kissed for the first time~his first time~.

~Falling in love or just falling out?~

Princess