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Tuesday, 20 November 2007
Just thoughts
Mood:  not sure

I was just googling love...it might sound lame but I really want to make sure I have a crystal clear understanding of what exactly love is and if I really want to continue to implement my plans of being in love with Jay... I don't want to just fall for him now before I am sure that it is a substantial emotion in my heart and in my mind. I never doubted it,but I have questioned it before because this a serious matter. Love is not auxiliary to lust so I just don't want to confuse the two... I don't know maybe my insecurities are getting the better half of me!

Fast Fact: Merisha and Grandpa Kenny hooked up lastnight!

~UMM...~

Princess


Posted by dat-princess-chick at 2:33 PM EST
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Monday, 19 November 2007
Love??Jay??
Mood:  not sure

My head hurt and my mind is boggled. I don't have the answer for this situation and I really don't know what to do. I don't want to disappoint him and I really don't want to tell him something that I don't know if I feel or not.

Last night me and Jay had a very serious conversation,he says he is falling for me and no doubt I have already fallen for him,but I didn't fall in love with him....but he told me that he loves me and it's a real serious thing to him because love is like being in love to him,it's a very big step in a relationship in his mind. But he says I push him away emotionally but I don't try to...it's just that I know he is getting real serious about us and is fighting to keep us together but I just want to protect my heart...I don't want to feel the pain and misery that I went through when me and C.J broke up again...and that's what I fear most will become of me and Jay. He is like a clone of CJ...how I always want to be everything to him as though I did with CJ and he is telling me he will never do anything to break my heart or ever intentionally hurt me...he is just telling me these things but he is just foretelling the future blindly...he doesn't know what will happen and neither do I...but like Demarkis said I just have to let go and let it flow. I will take Demarkis advice...because I too love Jay.

Fast Fact: It's been 2 weeks and 5 days me and Jay been together.

~Curious:Am I in love?~

Princess


Posted by dat-princess-chick at 8:49 AM EST
Updated: Monday, 19 November 2007 8:52 AM EST
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Saturday, 27 October 2007
Undecided
Mood:  down

It's like my mind and my heart is at war... I really don't know which will win...it'z hhard to side with either or!! I really would like to be with Davontay and see how things go with him...but then it's hard to just leave Jar knowing how much he loves me...and I don't want to break his heart because I know how that feels...Remebering how C.J did me...then it's like C.J left me for another girl that really didn't even want to be with him...so what if I make the same mistake like him!! I just don't want to be put into that situation!! But Jar sometimes irritate me now though...and it's like I think of Davontay all the time and I be wanting to be with him all the time,he makes me laugh and makes me so happy...but I can't foretell the future so I don't know if it will work out if I leave Jar for Davontay...he telling me it will but I can't be sure of that!!

FastFact: I got sent to the office on Wednesday for play fighting with Kareem...it was fun tho'!

~So indecisive~
Princess


Posted by dat-princess-chick at 9:35 AM EDT
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Saturday, 20 October 2007
Love isnt justified
Mood:  sad

What happens when the person you love more than life lies to you~ but typically it's not a lie it's just that you been believing one thing then finally one day they tell you the truth....well basically it's a lie because the person let you go on believing the lie!! So now you so confused because you thought that the person would never lie to you and know that they have,you don't know what else to believe and what not too??

I really wasn't mad the fact that Jermel is only 14 because I told him that I loved him under all circumstances....this slight age differences don't make a big deal. I wanted to know why he hadn't been told me,he answered because he didn't want me to break up with him.....he just have to trust me when I said nothing could stop me from feeling the way I do abot him!! I proved that my love for him is justified,he couldn't do the same!!

Fast Fact: My heart aches!!

~Not too good~

Princess


Posted by dat-princess-chick at 8:41 AM EDT
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Sunday, 14 October 2007
Lately....
Mood:  happy

I haven't written in this for some time.Well yesterday was my homecoming. Alexis went with me,it was fun. I only juked one person though!Jermel had came to see me when we got out too. The time we spend together lately has been so fun!!I really am in love with him. When we together we be joking around some times,then there are times when we would talk nd be serious and hold each other and kiss. But no matter what we are doing~I love being with him!!He is everything I could ever want in a boy....he is serious about us,funny,dress nice,smart,looks nice,and don't smoke or drink. He is the only one for me!!I love him so much!!

Fast Fact:Jermel is my one in a million

~So in love~

Princess


Posted by dat-princess-chick at 6:52 PM EDT
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Sunday, 30 September 2007
ok
Mood:  a-ok

Well these last days been hectic. I mean like it's been so confusing, I went from liking Dan more than Marquise to switching it around, then all of a sudden Marquise start claiming so now we are together, then I wrote Jermel a poem breakong up with him. I am failing like 3 subject...I am starting to hate school just because of that. But pass that, everything is confusing but yet still alright. I do feel sorry for having to break Jermel heart~if I did~ I really do love him but not enough to stay and get hurt. Here is the poem

It's like I was so sure we would last
Then things messed up so fast
Them times we talked on the phone
Made it seem like nothing could possibly go wrong
You used to make me smile and laugh
You the best boyfriend a girl could ever have
We been through thick and thin
We made it though,so I thought it'll never end
You made me happy and made me cry
You overjoyed me then you lie
But through it all I loved you just the same
No matter the time I only thought of your name
I couldn't express how much you meant to me
I was so certain we was meant to be
And that we were destined to be together
That we would be with each other forever
But lately things haven't been the same
Everything about us changed
I don't feel the same way I used to
I'm not trying to say that I don't still love you
But just because we in love with each other
Doesn't determine whether we should still be together
It's really hard for me write what I want to say
I never wanted to break your heart in any way
I had the best intentions to make you smile
But now it's like this isn't worth the while
I want to put this in the best way
But I don't know what to say
I don't want to play with your heart or lie
So I have to tell you that I am with another guy
Let me make it clearer...I'm so sorry and I love you so
But Jermel it's over...I have to let you go
Fast Fact:Marquise told me that he is in love with me last night on the phone~way too soon.
~ALRIGHT~
Princess

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Wednesday, 26 September 2007
Not Good
Mood:  down

It's like I am not even living life..all I do is go to school, home, homework, computer, and sleep....then wake up to do it all over again!!! I just hate that I am less than life because it makes me feel worthless and less valuable than all things, objects, and people living. Jermel used to make me happy but that only lasted for a short period of time so now I am back to being me I guess~dull and dead inside~....I like this one guy at school but he may think I am too young for him.

His name is Dan and he is a junior and by me being freshman that isn't a good mix~2 grade difference mean alot~so I guess I just have to leave him out as an option. But he just makes me smile alot every time I see him or hear his name. True! H e may not be the cutest thing walking earth but that matters less~he is the only thing walking earth that makes me feel happy inside out...and that's what matters most to me.I wish I could tell him but if he don't feel the same way about me then I'd be putting myself out there and now is not the time for all that~I just couldn't bare the depression. One girl named Carolyn thinks we would make a cute couple but I don't know about that....the age again!!!

I also like this other guy named Marquise but not as much as I like Dan.He is the guy I am going to homecoming with~one thing I am definately looking forward to and also the JROTC lock-in.

Fast Fact: I am about to break-up with Jermel~I think~

~Depressed~

Princess


Posted by dat-princess-chick at 10:35 AM EDT
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Sunday, 23 September 2007
Not Good At All
Mood:  sad

It hurts when you say things to people that you really care about but later on in life you just prove that what you thought was going to happen,just doesnt work out!!!Well I told Jermel that I wanted to be with him forever and that we was going to make it last forever.,but now I am not even sure if I want to even be with him because he is starting to break all his promises!!He would tell me that he'd call back at a certain time but call back hours later after the set time,having me wait around for his call and I just don't think it's fair. He used to make me so happy and smile all the time is name was mentioned or I heard his voice,but now he makes me so sad and feel bad and I cry alot now...I am trying to hide it under the phony smirks and giggles but it really hurts.I really putted my heart into building  a good relationship for the both of us...I don't feel good I need to go to sleep.

Fast FactS:Antawanna n me was fighting Lanica,Kijuanna,and Shontia.I am failing World Studies

~Worst Ever~

Princess


Posted by dat-princess-chick at 10:49 PM EDT
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Thursday, 20 September 2007
As days Go By
Mood:  a-ok

School has been doing fine, I think I need to work a little harder though because I think I am kind of slacking on grades and tests!! I really don't like colloquium days because I don't like the art works we do! But I join this multicultural art things and thismonths is Hispanic~or something like that~month so we are doing Latino dancing. I think I am really going to like that activity.

Today I went to church~it was fun and all...me and Oppy decided to get a little more actively involved in church by going every Sunday, Wednesday, and Tuesday~for choir~plus we plan on writing songs to sing. I think I am really going to like that. It was this boy named Kendell at church today trying to talk to me he was cute and all but I have a boyfriend so I going to et that boy pass me by.

Me and Jermel are not doing so good but we will pull through and get things together. Monday we had a bad day because we "broke-up" and we crying together on the phone to each other. I really do love him but sometimes I think that I cause problems for him,I want to help him not hurt him...I love that boy so much maybe even more than life!

Fast Fact: Oppy was pregnant last year from Sep.-Dec.....but she had a miscarriage from basketball.

~Alright~

Princess


Posted by dat-princess-chick at 12:20 AM EDT
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Saturday, 15 September 2007
Alright
Mood:  cool

As far as school goes my week has been fine,despite the fact that I have homework everyday! Also that I failed an algebra and world studies test! Another thing I very much dislike 2 cafeteria staff memebers and one librarian. I almost forgot,plus that I want this one guy named Roosevelt to like me but I am not sure if he does because all these other girls like him,so it's hard to tell who he likes!

As for my social life, I don't have much of one...I come home from school do homework, get on phone, and computer! I don't really go outside because I don't have the time to because I really need the grades to stay up! I just found out that my bestfriend, Mykki, likes mebut he says that he doesn't want it to ruin of best friendship, I really hope it doesn't.I also seen the boy whose shirt I took off at the park and by mistake I mixed him up with this guy that walked me home from the park the first day of school. I had realized that hours later,he was right I was mistaking him for another guy~I think I like him~he is so cute with clothes on and has pretty eyes...I really want to see him again!

For my personal life, me and Jermel is still together,I got rid of Mike-Mike he just isn't the one for me because I told Jermel that it's me and him there is no room for another guy. I really love Jermel but sometimes he makes me mad fo no apparent reason. I am trying to make the most of this and make it last but sometimes I feel like giving up on him,but I pray to God I wont loose hope in us! I try so hard.

FastFact:I went to Church Wednesday it was cool.

~Doing Fine~
Princess


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