Mood:  surprised

Me and DJ got so close to having sex. We tried but my hole was just so tight that he couldn't get it in no matter how much he played with me. Well I told him that I was a virgin so what could he expect. Let me start from the tops...him,me,Dre,and Keunna was in my room watching Coach WoodLock...or whatever the name of the movie is and so then when the movie was over Keunna and Dre left so then me and him was watching the Cookout and all and we was kissing then that movie went off and we started watching Catch That Kid and all thats where it all happened. He undid my pants and all and undid his belt buckle and then he fingered me and kept pushing it in but it was hurting so I was moaning then he tried to stick it in but he didn't want to force it so he stopped then fingered me again and tried again but still couldn't get it so we was kissing and moaning and whatever then  I said maybe we should try another day because it wasn't working so I changed my panties and put on some pajama pants and then we layed there and talked about it then we kissed some more then he left. That was crazy. I am just so shocked and it kind of hurt because of the fingering, I feel funny.

Fast Fact:Me and Dj talked about all he knew about sex and thats how we started to try, but it wasnt looking to goo

~In Pain~

Princess

Mood:  sad

I am in a very difficult situation right now! Tomorrow I have to tell DJ that when I come back I will only be back for a week and then I will be leaving back out of town with my dad to go to Minnesota with him because my little sister want me to be there then when I come back it will be for only like a couple of days then I will be leaving again....I think I am just not going to go with my dad because being away from DJ that long is not going to work for me...I am going to miss him just way too much! I don't know what I am going to do!

Fast Fact:Dad is in town and he went to all their grads.

~Sad~

Princess

Mood:  irritated

I am getting a little sick of DJ. This boy had the nerves to tell me that I am getting fat...that's the last thing a boy should tell a girl that they are in a relationship with and he talked about the bump I grew on my face when I didn't talk about that cold sore he had on his lip but thats cool he just better not speak to me for the rest of the time we are in school~I don't think I mean this but anyways I am going to stop eating junk food and exercise with my mom so that I can lose weigh I guess. But anyways that's all the bad news. Day before yesterday was cool though when we were laid up on the couch watching a scary movie and kissing...that's all.

 Fast Fact: Nikki graduate today

~Mad~

Princess

Mood:  a-ok

Nothing exciting , Dj still haven't found Dee-Dee jump drive. I am getting scared now!

Fast Fact: Boosie got beat up by Bling, it was crazy!

Mood:  happy

Yesterday I stayed after school and all and went to a study session and walked home then I went home and ate then went to see Oppy becauseit was her birthday, we didn't get to talk because there was a situation she was in that made her dispositioned to talk.

Dj had called me and we talked for a hot while, he never called me back but I wans't really expecting it because he never really call back when he says that he will but I know that he has a lot of people living in his house so talking on the phone isn't always gauranteed but I can't wait to go see The Strangers with him.

Fast Fact: Oppy is 7 months pregnant

It's crazy how you could be so mad at a person one second then the moment they talk to you everything changes!

Yesterday I went to Dee-Dee's play and I wanted DJ to come along too but he didn't and I was mad about that and said I wasn't going to speak to him for a long time and all then another thing is that he rather come in my house and play the game than hang with me, I don't mean to be selfish or nothing but I think he should be spending time with me...after all it is my house he be at! So I cried and decided that I wouldn't talk to him then at 11:30 something at night he called me and was saying how his aunt is in the hospital from a heart attack and that he was about to knock Janaixa out for talking about my house and all,that right there made me get real quiet and not want to talk anymore because it is true but just because my house is a little messy doesn't mean that's me and anyways it wasn't us that made the house that way, it was Crystal's friend Tiffany. But for now on I am not going to even be that way and say I'm not going to talk to DJ since he hasn't been talking to me I am just going to study for my final and deal with life one step at a time!

~Not So Good~

Princess

Mood:  a-ok

Okay well I have some stuff to write! For one, I was arguing with Janell on Wednesday because me and DJ was just talking and all then they was across the street at Demarkis house and he wanted to ask me a question then she opened her big mouth this how it went:

"Don't ask her nothing!"

"He can ask me whatever the fuck he want 2."

"Okay."

"Okay den."

"Who the fuck she think she talking to?!"

"I'm talking to yo' ass,"

"No the fuck you aint."

"I'll beeat yo' ass bitch!"

"Come do it den,bitch! Come do it!"

So I took my jacket off and gave it to DJ and pulled my phone off the clip and handed it to Dre or Demarkis, flipped my shoes off in the middle of the street and was like iight bitch let's do it. This scary how gon' sit back down...then so I just left and DJ walked me to my house and we was talking then I told him that tomorrow I was going to fight her as soon as I saw her. So then the next day I went to Demarkis house and I gave him his rough draft paper, then I was telling him how when she come over here I wasn't gonna say nothing I was just gonna stick her ass.....so Cara,Coral, and Janell came over. So I was just standing there like man whatever because she wouldn't step close enough she was standing down at the end of the pathway in front of Demarkis house... Coral and them wanted to see a fight so they told her to come here and as soon as she walked close enough I jabbed her ass dead in the jaw and step back like come on bitch I been waiting for this all day...she pulled her stuff off and came toward me and pulled my hair and was hitting me in the back and then I was going dead in on her ass and knocked her lip ring outta her mouth I was giving it to her ass then Boosie broke it up!

Fast Fsct: I think I am starting to like Benji.!

Mood:  a-ok

Well everything is just fine with me and DJ...we didn't see each other yesterday but we did talk for a good 10 minutes and I don't know if I will be seeing him today because I am trying to start back going to church. However, Monday we were together...I guess you could say we had fun but then we had sad moments also. When I told him that for the break I would be leaving immediately after the first weekend he looked as though he was going to cry and that made me also want to cry, and when I told him that had to leave again at the end of the break his face dropped even more...now I don't know how I am going to tell him that when I am here that I wont get the chance to be with him as much because Sister Kayaetta is telling me about how the Drama Team is about to start back again and we get requests from other churches to perform there...I am very scared and I don't want to see his face look as it did again.I just might cry the night before I leave and while I am there. I have like 4 weeks left before I go, Keunna said I might second guess myself on going but I know for sure that I want to go! I just don't want to leave him all by himself though then he said something about me moving on but that never crossed my mind that he would think that I would have thought that he might want to take a break. But other than that we had talked about how whenever we not together how I try to pass time by fast by doing things to keep me bus until the next time I'll see him. He said he wish he could be with me all the time but he don't want us to get tired of each other and run out of things to say. I think I am falling in love but I wont admit it.

Fast Fact: Jawaun texted me asking was Jada a bussa because people been telling him that she jagged some guy at school off.

~Simply Me~

Princess

Mood:  spacey

I haven't seen DJ in 3 whole days...I wont say I miss him but I do wish to see his face. Last night we had a pretty interesting conversation. I also wish to tell him that I love him but I don't know if it's true and I know that it would make things awkward when we both said we never going down that road agin.I am just confused

Fast Fact: DJ's sister face got cut up by a box-cutter

~Confused~

Princess

Mood:  not sure

When I saw DJ saturday it was a bad day. I didn't see him again until yesterday, Tuesday, but he did call me Tuesday and yesterday when I saw him we didn't even get to talk because it rained and plus Mike was shotting on the side of my house and I ran in the house and they ran on Racine but I tried calling him but he didn't make it home yet so I will call him today when I get from the interview to see if he is coming to church with me so I'd know whether to stop at his home or not.

I am scared that I'll get the job and have to leave for Jackson,Mississippi the problem is that I don't want to be away from Dj for too long but this is a once in a life time deal.

~Worried~

Princess