Mood:  sad

It hurts when you say things to people that you really care about but later on in life you just prove that what you thought was going to happen,just doesnt work out!!!Well I told Jermel that I wanted to be with him forever and that we was going to make it last forever.,but now I am not even sure if I want to even be with him because he is starting to break all his promises!!He would tell me that he'd call back at a certain time but call back hours later after the set time,having me wait around for his call and I just don't think it's fair. He used to make me so happy and smile all the time is name was mentioned or I heard his voice,but now he makes me so sad and feel bad and I cry alot now...I am trying to hide it under the phony smirks and giggles but it really hurts.I really putted my heart into building  a good relationship for the both of us...I don't feel good I need to go to sleep.

Fast FactS:Antawanna n me was fighting Lanica,Kijuanna,and Shontia.I am failing World Studies

~Worst Ever~

Princess

Mood:  a-ok

School has been doing fine, I think I need to work a little harder though because I think I am kind of slacking on grades and tests!! I really don't like colloquium days because I don't like the art works we do! But I join this multicultural art things and thismonths is Hispanic~or something like that~month so we are doing Latino dancing. I think I am really going to like that activity.

Today I went to church~it was fun and all...me and Oppy decided to get a little more actively involved in church by going every Sunday, Wednesday, and Tuesday~for choir~plus we plan on writing songs to sing. I think I am really going to like that. It was this boy named Kendell at church today trying to talk to me he was cute and all but I have a boyfriend so I going to et that boy pass me by.

Me and Jermel are not doing so good but we will pull through and get things together. Monday we had a bad day because we "broke-up" and we crying together on the phone to each other. I really do love him but sometimes I think that I cause problems for him,I want to help him not hurt him...I love that boy so much maybe even more than life!

Fast Fact: Oppy was pregnant last year from Sep.-Dec.....but she had a miscarriage from basketball.

~Alright~

Princess

Mood:  cool

As far as school goes my week has been fine,despite the fact that I have homework everyday! Also that I failed an algebra and world studies test! Another thing I very much dislike 2 cafeteria staff memebers and one librarian. I almost forgot,plus that I want this one guy named Roosevelt to like me but I am not sure if he does because all these other girls like him,so it's hard to tell who he likes!

As for my social life, I don't have much of one...I come home from school do homework, get on phone, and computer! I don't really go outside because I don't have the time to because I really need the grades to stay up! I just found out that my bestfriend, Mykki, likes mebut he says that he doesn't want it to ruin of best friendship, I really hope it doesn't.I also seen the boy whose shirt I took off at the park and by mistake I mixed him up with this guy that walked me home from the park the first day of school. I had realized that hours later,he was right I was mistaking him for another guy~I think I like him~he is so cute with clothes on and has pretty eyes...I really want to see him again!

For my personal life, me and Jermel is still together,I got rid of Mike-Mike he just isn't the one for me because I told Jermel that it's me and him there is no room for another guy. I really love Jermel but sometimes he makes me mad fo no apparent reason. I am trying to make the most of this and make it last but sometimes I feel like giving up on him,but I pray to God I wont loose hope in us! I try so hard.

FastFact:I went to Church Wednesday it was cool.

~Doing Fine~
Princess

Mood:  happy

School is going great!! My relationship is also...I just have to copy and paste the meassge he sent me and the message I sent him back!!They were both sweet and very true. I like this boy named Roosevelt at my school~well atealst I used to~but I stopped liking him today by how this girl named Kearra~or howver you spell her name~was all on him today at luch but it's okay...I hate Mixed Chorus class...very boring and long,I am going to do art next year. But I went to Oppy house today to see Brandon and kicked it there for about an hour~!!

Fast Fact:J-Rock is trying t get at me!

~Very Happy~

Princess

Da messages......

today i missed my bus so i stayed home n the only person i can think of iz u i love u so much n i really want this relationship to get stronger not weaker n i kno sometimes i get on your nerves nd i kno sometimes i be rude but iam writin this to say im sorry i am also sorry 4 the times when i couldnt answer my phone nd i am sorry 4 all the times i made u mad i feel that i can be a better boyfriend cuz right now i juss feel like i am doin somethin wrong but isnt so sure wat it is i think i have been makin improvement in our relationship but only u can tell me that u mean this whole fuckin world to n i juss want 2 say that my dream is to be wit u 4 eva nd i would do anything to make that happen n juss to let u kno u is the first girl that i ever dropped a tear 4 n i do understand how u feel when u wrote that journal entry but thats ok cuz i dont care wat everybody think i juss kno that i want to be wit u nd i am gone be with u so tell all them haters thats sayin that we gone break up real soon to fall back cuz i garuntee that we iz goin to prove them wrong i kno u probably like wat is he writin this 4 but hopefully u will understand the reason i am writin this iz to tell u three things i luv u, i dont ever want to let u go 4 no other girl , nd i want to be wit u its more but that is the three main things all i can do now iz prove it unless i already did n im still thinkin bout the time when i kept talkin to my friends instead of u but juss to let u kno i wud put u before any of them like 4 instant whenever were on the phone n they on my other line i dont even answer it or i jjuss be like imma call yall back juss to talk to u nd its soo many ppl talkin about jermel u bogus 4 puttin yo girl pic on yo background n they was like u a fag 4 that but they dont understand how it feels to be in love cuz thats exactly wat were in i had to tell how i feel juss incase u 4 got im deeply in love wit u n i hopin we can be together longer than wat ppl sayin we iz i am goin to call u at 4:00 today n u can tell me wat u think and how u feel n stuff like that n plz remember n take this very seriously L.O.E.  N THATS 4 REAL LOVE OVER EVERYTHING N WHEN I SAY OVER EVERTHING I MEAN IT I LOVE DEMETRIA 

Lemme tryda put it to word how I feel about you,it's quite obvious that I really love you~and if its not very clear~lemme tryda explain it to you...I put you first before ALL of my friends and some of my family...witho­ut you life is meaningless and not worth the time to living it. I remember when I said that I'd never love someone ever again...but you have me falling for you and I juz cant help but be in love with you and as much as I resented that I'd fall in love again and now to be back in it with you has to count for something,it really does mean alot...cuz baby U R da only ONE for me and I really mean that everything that I tell you is factual because I can invision us spending a lifetime together...I love you more than life...as for those that say that we not gonna last long its true that they can fall back and bump they head den dey dead....we iz gonna make diz last foreva...altho­ugh I say that foreva neva last and it ends way 2 quick...we gonna juz have 2 make it,I neva had no1 I really wanted to spend da rest of my life with....but now you're dat one...I cant exactly tell U how much dat I am deeply in love with you and I plan on keeping it dat way...and if we were 2 eva juz so happen 2 break up I'll neva go with sum1 else cuz no compares to you and I'd 4eva still be in love...I try to prove tgis all to you...but I neva really told a boy how I felt about them face2face or ova da phone but I am tryin 2 improve on dat so I can be able 2 tell U all of dez things,I really do love U n like I said M.O.L~my only love and it'll 4eva be like that nobody can eva take yo place in my heart n no1 cab ever replace U,U r truly one in a million n i am glad dat I was da 1 I choose out of da millions...I am soo lucky I have U in mah life n I will cherish all da time da I have U by mah side...I love U soo much baby

Mood:  a-ok

Well I started school Tuesday and it's been great. The best part of everyday is school. I talk to almost every body there, but don't like any boys there though. My best class is JROTC,I would say that the wprst part about school is having homework already. But me and Jimbo is still together although and he hasn't been making me happy lately,but I can't always be happy so we will be okay. I've been spending a little time with Mike-Mike lately, already he think we together but I don't know how to tell him that it isn't true. I think that's going to be a major problem.

Fast Fact:I think Karen is with Ra-Ra.

~Okay,~

Princess

Mood:  a-ok

Today was an okay day I guess except the fact that I didn't see Kenny so I didn't get the chance to tell him how I feel..but oh wow maybe tomorrow. But I did talk to Supex Jimbo,well basically all I did was read him my poems because he wanted to hear them.I seen and talked to Aaron~that boy who's shirt I took off for him~at the park but I don't like him anymore.

Fast Fact:P.J likes me because he told me he think I look think in my pajamas and kept staring at me~also I dyed me hair if I hadn't already said so~

~Alright~

Princess

Mood:  happy

I don't want to write about my day,so instead I am going to write about Kenny. Well I met him like 3 days ago at the park,we are just friends! But today when I was at the park Rob was telling me about how Kenny likes me and all and wants to be with me,then I was thinking about it like I like him also but I just can't bring myself to cheat on Supex Jimbo(Jermel)~but I just really like Kenny,he is so funny and nice to me! When me and Lanica came to the park for a second time we finally saw Kenny,it was like 8:02p.m and was getting so dark so we saw him at the basketball court and so I walked up and gave him a hug and all then we were talking and playing around for like 30 mins. so then me and Lanica left because he went to play basketball with his guys and all but then we wee like we'd see him tomorrow around 4 or 5! But I can't wait to see him because I am going to tell him that I like him but I don't want to be with him because its going to make things too awkward for me! But honestly I been thinking about him like all today even before Robert told me all that stuff,but I think it's kind of wrong when I tell Supex Jimbo that I love him!

Fast Fact:I seen oh dude who's shirt I took off,but he was giving Lanica more attention than me so I don't like him anymore!

~Oh So Good~

Princess

Mood:  a-ok

Well for the last 3 days I have been going to orientation,it was beem boring to me but I have met some pretty cool people then there were others that weren't! But I have these 2 main people that I associate with:Tasha and Mica. Mica actually is Malcolm cousin.But me and Jermel talked last night from like 11p.m something until 5:50 something a.m!Today is his birthday but he didn't do anything.I am IMing him now,I am in love with this boy like so seriously. But also yesterday me and Dee-Dee were arguing so today he didn't pay my fee's but it's okay because my mom did! Also yesterday these girls wanted to fight me,Kijuanna, and Lanica over this guy named Joe that's my friend but they didn't make amove to even try to get down to it,so I was not sweating that.Today I had my last day of orientation and when I got home I had my hair rinsed to red,I think it looks nice on me but it isn't all that great I would look better with a kind of light brown. I had went to the park with Kijuanna and Lanica,we didn't see Joe but we saw his brother~my other friend~his name Kenny but I call him Urban because that's his school name.Then we went to Lanica house then me and Lanica went to see Mercedes, Chardai, and Samara before we went to church then on our way back we went to see Karen. Back to Chardai house then I seen Oppy and we talked for a little while. Then I got home and now IMing Jermel.

Fast Fact:I don't really think I am over Rayshawn.

~Alright I Guess~

Princess

Mood:  a-ok

I had a nice day today. I Tony came in town and I seen him and he gave me $40.00 because I never received his gift for my graduation,so with his money I brought me something to eat and two shirts and a pair of pants from the Plaza. Cassidy was also at the Plaza and I got his autograph and a picture taken with him. After me,Nikki,and Shavon went to Jewel Osco to get my mom a birthday cake and when we got home we went around to the block party and I went to Keunna house. I waited for Dee-Dee and mom to get home so we can surprise her with the cake and ice cream,after that I called Jermel but his voicemail came right on! So today was a good day except the fact that I didn't get to talk to Jermel

Fast Fact:Lydell and Lanica actually are talking but he is just playing with her head.

~Alright~

Princess

Mood:  a-ok

I guess it was a good day I talked to Jermel for like most of the day. But other than that I walked Keunna to the store. We talked on her porch for some time before that! So that's basically all to my day!

Fast Fact:Me and Jermel broke up yesterday from these 2 girls claiming them but we hooked back up because it wasnt true!

~Doing Fine~

Princess