Mood:  a-ok

Now I can write the story of what happened between me and Davontay. Well Monday night he called me and said we needed to talk and he told me that we never see each other and don't have time for this relationship and whatever so he asked for my opinion and I was like I shouldn't have to voice my opinion to persuade him to stay with me so that was that!  Then so we broke up and then he called back like 5 minutes later and said he was sorry he made a mistake that he still did want to be with me and whatever so we hooked back up that night....but Wednesday when school starts back up people telling me that he saying we not together so I don't really know what day it was that we broke up! But it doesn't matter what's the reason or the day because I don't care anymore.....

Fast Fact: Me and Jay too broke up Wednesday I didn't want to be with him anymore but we are still friends....

~Fine~

Princess

Mood:  irritated

I am still like so mad that Davontay broke-up with me! It suppose to be the other way around! There is so much more to the story than I can write now because I have to go to Biology in like 2 minutes so later when I log on I will write it all!!! I HATE HIM! It's so humiliating!

~Hating that DOOD~

Princess

Mood:  a-ok

Well I can't really write anything about my relationships because I hadn't talked to either yesterday because after school Davontay had basketball and when he was done with that I had track so we didn't get to talk. When I got home I ate and fell asleep at 6:30 and woke back up at 10:30and then fell right back to sleep at 10:50 without even going to get the phone to call Davontay to see what he was up to! But I seen him today in the halls when I was going to my locker and hugged him and he asked what class I got and I said World Studies then we departed from each other. But hopefully I will see him after school and we can talk~possibly kiss!~ and what not....but I am not even into that anymore with him it has got old...but I still like it!

I think I am going to have to go to the doctor to see if something is wrong with me because all of a sudden I've been having a bladder problem! I hope it isn't anything serious.!

Fast Fact:I am not talking to Tekhundra because she is mad at me for befriending Ke'Aira since they are no longer friends!

~Alright~

Princess

Mood:  a-ok

I guess the last blog entry didn't get posted but it was just about how Davontay made me mad yesterday when he doesn't speak to me and how he all into basketball but doesn't have time for me or us! But I dropped that case when my brother told me that I shouldn't get mad because basketball was a part of his life before I came along and that's so true...I really can't expect him to put me before basketball because he knows that it will be there after I leave as well as it was before I came...so that's all okay now! Finally last night we had a real conversation on the phone about how we felt about the relationship and the things we don't like about each other and this lasted for like a hour and 27 minutes! We got off the phone at like almost 12:30 a.m...I was happy but at the same time I didn't want to wake up in the morning...it took me like 5 extra minutes to get my body up off the bed! I am still soar though!

Me and Jay also talked last night and I told him how I fell out of love with him and I told him that I like Davontay and want to be with him as well but he also told me some things such as how he was grinding on this girl at school and whatever but I really don't care...well I do but not so much to get angry over because I want to be in love with Davontay not Jay anymore~but I don't think Davontay looking for that type of relationship and I am not really looking for that either!

Church was good yesterday and all! Charssa came at that made it even better and I met a new person, his name is Pierre and hopefully I will be seeing him again.... I am trying to turn over a new leaf and start fresh and not trip, do my homework, put in study time, study the bible, go to sleep on time, attend church regularly,no arguments, I wouldn't call it being perfect because perfection doesn't occur here on Earth but just be an all-around cool person.

FastFact: Demarkis got humped the other day

~New Me~

Princess

Mood:  happy

My life been good! I think I am starting to loose feelings for Jay because Davontay and I know I am loosing feelings because when we used to be on the phone I was so uptight and didn't know how to loosen up and tell him how I felt but lastnight when we were on the phone I was just telling him alot of stuff that I didn't feel because it's easy for me to tell a person good things when I am not feeling that way! And usually I wouldn't tell him that I was flirting with Greg and other guys but I did and I even asked him did he like Denise and I didn't care whether he did or didn't. Yesterday I had tried for the track team...that stuff was tough but it'll get better hopefully but afterwards I was with Davontay! Me,Kezia,Benjamin, Davontay, and Alandrea was playing on the 3rd floor then after they went to the 2nd floor me and Davontay stayed to talk on the 3rd! So he wanted to kiss me and so he kissed me on my cheek and I kissed him back on his cheek and then he said he was tired of the cheek stuff that he wanted to kiss my lips...so I told him to kiss me and he peeked me on the lips~I wanted more than that~ so I was like I thought you wasn't a bird and didn't do peeks so he was like let me recheck my status then he came back at it again but 2 times I pushed him away~ I was too scared~ then I told him okay I was then he layed it on me as he says! But we kissed like a dozen times and it was so funny because afterwards the smile on his face was crazy!!

Fast Fact: Grego wrote me and was saying he was sorry and all about him and Mercedes and then Dan hugged me today and was talking about how in a while he going to love me

~On Cloud 9~

Princess

Mood:  a-ok

Me and Jay back together and whatever but it'll never be the same because I aint even feeling him anymore~atleast not like I used too~ and me and Grego aint talking no more because he tried to talk to Mercedes and that's my baby and no guy is going to be able to get in between us and then try to play us like we a deck of cards! Another thing me and Davontay are together now! We had hooked up Wednesday (1/30)...he tried to kiss me the next day but I couldn't because the camera was in my face and I wasn't ready at all it was so funny though to me but when I finally was ready and was about to kiss him everytime someone intervened but it's okay maybe this Wednesday we can. But I took Davontay and made him my main and Jay just a dip. If only I knew Greg off the block and not from church I could have got with him too and they all would have been getting played but I can't so as for now I am just going to keep him posted and play around with him! But other than those things nothing major has happened

Fast Fact: I am going to Mercedes's Valentines Day Dance this Friday! and I like Marquise again somedays he just be looking too damn good...lol...but I wont do Davontay like that!

~Satisfied~

Princess

My days been going past kind of fast...really like really.! I mean like man it's crazy...I would thought that I would dwell over Jay and be so  sad but I can't do that because I been getting up with Grego...like hello they know! We be talking like all the time and I want to put shawty into the game but the timing aint right because I just knocked Jay out!~ He be calling me pooh and clearly thats my boo and I aint letting go of this one! He is supa funny though....he be having me on the fasting going...his jokes be kn-kn-kn-knocking! We be talking about the craziest things and I like it! He be online ready to message me like waddup all day we up in there!

FastFact: Out with the old in with the new thats why I am cearky done with you!

~I'm like so Grego crazy~

Princess

It's official now...me and Jay is done with! I am so done with "relationships" because lately they've all been my downfall and besides I don't need no boy in my life I've got all the important guys in my life already [my brothers,uncles,and dads]....why should I want more? But I am kind of hurt because Jay was really special to me and I didn't want to let go just yet but I couldn't play myself out and just act like he never sent that message to Alexis that said:

"I hope that is you in that picture because yall look good almost make me want to forget that i have a gf...what is your name...you look like a type of person i would want to get to know"

There was nothing wrong with the message up until the part where he say "make me want to forget that I have a gf"....I don't want to be forgotten especially not by him when I love him more than anything but that just proves that he didn't feel the same! I knew he wasn't going to be the one in the first place but atleast I tried.

FastFact:I didn't cry!

~Sad~

Princess

Mood:  a-ok

Life has been good and again  can't complain....my days been going by in a rush and it make it feels like my adulthood is approaching sooner than ever imagined! I am trying to slow down but that feel impossible! Like everyday I have something to do and it makes less time for me to just chill....if I would want to chill I would have to eliminate something from my schedule...that's crazy! Like today for example, I have a job interview and Jay wanted me to come see him play in his game but I can't do that because the interview. Friday, Demarkis wants me to go up to Bond with him but I can't because I volunteered to help Carol at her school! Sunday, somebody wanted me to hang with them but I can't because I already told Ms.Collier I will go to night service at church with her....I can't keep pushing people away...then again I have to because these are my responsibilities and I fully understand that! I get tired almost too fast....ususally I would be out around 2 lately it's been like 11....I am trying to fit praise,worship,bible study, and praying into my daily life but it's sometimes hard but this is something I absolutely have to do because it's essential and an substantial part of my life right now!

A couple of change...I am also talking to this guy named Gary...but he only in 8th! That kind of came as a shock to me ...but he is tooo fine to just let go because of grade difference. Matt is back to feelig that we can't talk like that because I push him away since my last 2 weeks been hectic! Nick and I barely talk~we talked for half an hour last night though~.....Me and Merisha back cool....Jay and I are doing better than ever~I think~.....! And as crazy as it may seem I think I am in love with Davontay because everytime I see him I get a rush~like a shiver through my body~but I never go over and talk to him because someone is always by him and I don't think he likes me anymore.....I am starting to like Dan a little~he calls me all the time trying to talk but I am not sure that he's feeling me in that way or not~we suppose to hang out after school today....and I don't like Akeem anymore....feeling change but the person remains the same!

Fast Fact: I like another boy from church...his name is Greg~Denise cousin~but he too short and his mouth kind of messy!

Slowly Changing

Princess

Mood:  cool

Well I guess I am doing fine! My whole fasting is EASY! Sometimes I get tempted to eat but I back away because I made a promise to Jesus that I wouldn't! So everything is fine....including my relationship. I saw him yestersay at the church because he was suppose to help me study~which he rarely did becayse he had to leave~ but that was cool! Some young boy had helped me..I never caught his name! But I also saw De'Aire....I get to see Jay today also!

Fast Fact: 3 days left!