Mood:  don't ask

Why try to change if others will not cooperate? I tried to change my attitude problem and it's been going fine until today! Boo-Boo pissed me off earlier we were arguing because the incident that happened yesterday with us throwing bottles and stuff and he had the nerves to cuss at me so I yelled at him then I had to go so I went away with an attitude and then he had the nerves to called Gerald ugly...when he is not so I was also mad about that.Then D.D made me mad by opening his mouth to say something that really wasn't needed that why we stay into it but I don't care! Sice I'm already onto the topic of the bad that have happened to me in the last couple of day I might as well tell what happened with Rayshawn. Yesterday I told him that I'd be back on the block at 7 so that we can be together and what not. So I went to the park with Lanica and Whitney Bullock~by the way Lanica ripped some boy shirt up there and it was so hilarious~but the point is that I got back on the block at like 7:15 only to find that he wasn't there.So I waited for like 10 minutes to see if he'll show up and when that didn't happen I went to Keunna house and I told her like Rayshawn stood me up and whatever then she like aint that him right there~I looked at I seen him with this other girl! So I walked off and then Keunna calls me like do you go with Rayshawn already so I'm like no and she say good because he's down here feeling on that girl but I wasn't tripping to much about that or anything so me, Karen, Whitney B.,and Lanica walked NKeita to Ashland and then we saw them boys  that Lanica ripped shirt and so they walked us to Morgan and when I get back on the block I saw Rayshawn with another girl! But I was like whatever!

But now that all the bad news out the way lets get to the good news~well me and Gerald spent alot of time together last night!I was with him from like 8 until 12:25! We walked Karen home and while her and Demarkis was by some tree in the park me and Gerald where in the tennis court sitting down and talking..he is very funny we act so much alike,it's so crazy. Before that we were at the end of my block on this like stoop thing just talking and constantly smiling and he kissed my hand and I kissed his cheek~but it aint go much farther than that!I may have wanted it to but then I don't want to rush things. But after the prk we were on my porch talking more and when it was time for him to go in the house he hugged me and we were hugging for a long time and while we were hugging he said I don't want to let go! That was so sweet and I was blushing like too hard but I also felt the same way.

Off the Gerald subject~I had fun outside with Lanica and Keunna these past day...I been seeing Lil Tye also....I think his brother Terrance is so cute but he only about to be like in 7th or 8th....too young! But I want Keunna to go with him!What else? Well let's see~I have to think~....well I went to church today and I asked Jay to sit next to me because I didn't want to sit by myself so he did and guess what? He asked me to be his girlfriend but that didn't happen and he got mad when I gave him the reasons which were that I have a boyfriend and that he talked to Kay-Kay...and he was mad at the fact that I thought him and Kay-Kay were together!