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Tuesday, 30 September 2008
Lately
Mood:  a-ok
Yupp it's been a while since I've written in you, I've been meaning to but never got the chance I barely have much time now but this will be brief anyways. Well there is this guy named Demetrius Thomas that likes me but I call him my twin, he is cute but I am in love plus he is a freshman. I sot of like Emmanuel Dosumnu but not too much. Me and DJ are going great now... we still barely spend much time together but that's okay, he finnaly has his schedule changed and has a math class, I will be helping him with that. I miss him sometimes but it's nothing I can't handle. Sunday we went exercising at the park, we did 6 laps around the track and once around the park, we were so tired afterwards and went home to watch T.V and movies and eat, he was there all day from 8 a.m til like 9 p.m. We express our feelings for one another way more often and open than we used to. I realy love him and don't want to loose him.I can talk to him about anything and everything...he was helping when I told him the probelm I had about thinking my mom is bicurious and texting a woman named Ave.

Posted by dat-princess-chick at 1:22 PM EDT
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Wednesday, 17 September 2008
The Other Girls
Mood:  sad
Well, me and DJ are doing fine but I'm scared I am going to loose him soon, he has basketball and all and he gets out around 7, even though he comes to see me right after that's still not enough. These 3 girls liking him and maybe one of them are better looking than me, smarter than me, more funny than I am and will treat him better than I have been doing. Then he see's them everyday at school for 6 hours but only see me for 1 hour everyday! Maybe, he'll start finding comfort in their company and forget all about me! I'm just not ready to let go yet and for him to leave me. I never seen those girls so I don't know what type of competition I'm looking at. I only know 1 things about one of the girls, he said she musty, and that another girl name is China and she's a freshman in his Art I class then there is this other girl that watches him play basketball! I can only eliminate one out the picture and I maybe can't even do that for sure. All I know is that maybe one of them girls could take the most important thing going for me right now and I don't know if I'll be able to handle that.

Posted by dat-princess-chick at 8:15 AM EDT
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Tuesday, 2 September 2008
Thoughts
Mood:  cool
Okay well....as promised I did what I had to do but didn't do it well, he did what he wished to do when I healed and it went well. I love him though and I am missing him this day! It's his first day back at school, I hope he enjoys it as well as Dre...he's in highschool now!!! GO DRE!!! lol...but I didn't get to see DJ yesterday because he was out in Harvey getting his hair cut but that's cool, we're going to the show Friday to see whatever. It's going to be me and him,Dre and Keunna, Bri and Devon, Demarkis and Krystal...that should be fun! We getting a ride back after we come from Wendy's. I am looking forward to that. I have been getting money like crazy lately... altogether in 5 days I got $60...Imma start saving for DJ birthday.

Posted by dat-princess-chick at 8:20 AM EDT
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Saturday, 30 August 2008
Pleasure
Mood:  energetic
Today was crazy! Me and DJ was arguing because he lied and said he was a virgin but he's not and his excuse for not telling me because he was embarrassed and what not...so I was all mad then he broght up what I had told him and called me some hurtful names so I went into my room and started crying then he came in there and held me telling me not to cry because he was sorry and didn't mean it and said he loves me and want to spend the rest of his life with me, then he started crying so I held him and told him that I loved him and that it's okay and not to cry. After that we just held each other then somehow we got into some stuff then OMG he ate me out sooo good and he also was fingering me...it felt like I was about to explode but I am so embarssed because I came in his mouth! I am so ashamed, after that we went into Nikki rom and held each other and told each other alot of sweet things about how much we love the other, tomorrow is his turn to feel sooo good!

Posted by dat-princess-chick at 2:04 AM EDT
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Wednesday, 27 August 2008
In Love
Well me and Jermel are no longer talking because DJ asked me not to, me and DJ are better than ever! We be having so much fun together, I love this guy so much!

Posted by dat-princess-chick at 8:53 AM EDT
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Thursday, 21 August 2008
....BORED...
Mood:  blue
I am so bored outta my mind!!! I miss DJ so much,I wish he was here...one day gone and already I'm loosing it...bored outta my freaking mind!!!

Posted by dat-princess-chick at 7:55 PM EDT
Updated: Thursday, 21 August 2008 7:56 PM EDT
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Wednesday, 20 August 2008
Finale
Mood:  quizzical
Okay well me and Jermel has been writing each other back and forth but all those messages he sent me didn't really amount to nothing because I had my mind set...and I loved DJ that's all and I was sure that I wouldn't let Jermel mess that up! But yesterday after cross country practice I called Jermel to tell him to come get me...so we walking to the bus stop just talking and all so then we hugged and he wouldn't let me go,being in his arms again felt good...but what really made me really think about how we used to be was when I was getting on the bus and his arms was around my neck holding me and he was so close up on me then when I stepped on the first bus step he had put his hand around my waist so I wouldn't fall...that made me just think about him all day...when I was leaving from with DJ I just kept thinking about what if me and Jermel hook up again?Would I really leave DJ?Who is better for me?Which will I have a better life with? Who means more to me?...All those questions kept coming to my mind and I didn't really know the answer then but I think I know it now...DJ is my boyfriend and I love him and he loves me so I am going to stay with him because he treats me 3x better than any guy ever has....he fell in love with me and he's the one there holding me almost everynight, he's the one I loving hugging and kissing, he's the one I dream of everynight, he's the one always on my mind, he's the one telling me that he loves me, he's the one my heart beats for...I am just so in love with him, I'll be a fool to mess up what we have up...I never loved a guy more than I love DJ, and I don't think a guy ever loved me more than he does...I just wish that I could tell him this, but everytime I want to tell him these type of things I  get afriad because I don't want to put myself out there and seem so sentimental, and I wouldn't know what to say either...it's always been easier for me to write things rather than tell the person even though words mean more than wiritngs...I just wish that one day I could tell him all the things I think...and I want to tell him how I feel every time he says he loves me, and I want to tell him how much I was hurting when he said he liked another girl, I want to tell him how much I cried after every argument we had...but most of all I want to tell him how much I miss him when he's not around and how much I love him even when we're mad at each other.

Posted by dat-princess-chick at 10:49 AM EDT
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Tuesday, 19 August 2008
Our Convo.
Hey i jus needed to get this off my chest i really miss bein wit u i miss us bein as 1 its like with out u in my life its like somethin is missin its like a hole in my heart that needs to be filled i miss it bein meme melmel u kno i jus really love u and its like i never stop bein in love wit u even though i made it seem that way its jus sometimes i dont have a thing to say i miss tellin u i love u at night i miss kissin u on the lips and holdin u tight in my arms i even miss the lil arguements lol and when u asked me did i still like u i wanted to say yea so bad but to tell u the truth i was scared to say it cuz i didnt kno if i was ready to be serious again i really regret that i didnt give u a second chance it might not seem like it but i wanna be wit u i wanna be yo everything i wanna be the 1 thats on yo mind night and day and most of all i still want it to be dj but not dominique jeter i want it to be demetria and jermel and other words wud u reconsider bein my garfield baby LOE

That was real sweet and all Jermel...and I love you too but I wish that you would have said something long ago when I wanted you bavk but now that im in a serious relationship I'm not ready to leave it

 

Aw ok i understand that u wud rather be wit him than me im sorry that i even wrote u that last message when i already knew wat the answer was gone be sorry that i even bothered u and i dont kno wat i was thinkin when i wrote that cuz how cud i jus expect us to get back in a relationship if we dont even communicate as friends of coarse i wud love to do that but some ppl dont have time 4 others but jus kno i do still love u and yes im proud to say it i am still in love wit u but i guess that wont change yo answer i guess i gotta jus live off memories of us cuz i dont think im goin to get a chance to be yo man again cuz u in love wit another boy and it dont seem like thats gone change u kno but yea i miss u and i always will miss u and in my heart jus kno that u will always be number 1 no girl will never be above u and no one can ever take yo place in my heart i want u to always remember that ok and i promise u that whenever u need me im here 4 u i love u baby

Why you aint answering yo' phone when I call??!! I am so mad at you...why people keep telling me that you smoke???...That don't make no sense!! But thanks for the messages, and yes I am in love with DJ and no I don't plan on leaving him any time soon because it's like he's everything you used to be to me...and since I messed up with you and never got that second chance I am going to treat him and love him like I would have loved you if you would have let me prove to you that I wasn't like that anymore...He's the best thing I have going for me right now and I'll never to anything to sabotage that...I love you but not in that way,just like a friend because that's as far as my heart will let me go and that's as far as I thought you wanted to go...you said you weren't ready to get back into a serious relationship when I was, and now I'm not ready to leave a serious relationship now that you're ready..it's truly evident that we're meant to be friends...I hope you cool with that...but no matter what I still love you Jar

First off y dont u never answer when i call u back and another thing when have u ever heard about me smokin i thought u knew me better than that....Thats crazy how somebody wud jus lie and tell u that who told u that by the way? I jus hate the fact that somebody wud say that atleast they could've made up somethin else but let me jus answer the smokin question no i dont smoke cuz i care to much about sports and school to let that stuff get to me another thing u said that he is everything i used to be of coarse i didnt like that statement but i cant change the way u feel and by sayin that do u mean i changed cuz u said used to be and thats past tense and let me comment on that i never changed i always did love u and wanted to get back with u i dont kno y i jus never showed it and u kno y i didnt give u a second chance but i guess thats my lost that i will have to live wit im truely sorry about that...But u didnt even give me a second chance or a third. my heart kinda hurt right now.

I jus hate the fact that u dont even like me no more and i never knew 4eva can end but i guess u jus showed me that this is like the end of the road cuz u jus made it clear that yall gone be together 4 a life time which means that i will never get another chance to be wit u man i love u and i do wanna be wit u trust me im still the same old jimbo minus the lying baby i miss u i miss bein wit u i miss everything and i told u that in the last message like i wanna kno do u even believe a word im sayin or do u think its jus all talk be honest i think i said all i can say there's nothin else i can say except i love u and my love 4 u is everlastin i guess thats it

 

I wasn't saying that I'll be with him for a lifetime but we planned our life together and from what's he's saying he want to be with me forever and I don't want to front because I want the same thing he wants...but a while ago all I wanted to do was prove to you that I loved you and nothing changed and that we could truley have a life together but you wasn't ready and I'm not mad at you for that...and even when me and DJ was together I kept stressing to you how much I was still in love but I never really got the response I wanted so I had to let go because you was hurting me so bad...when you was acting like you didn't love me and I was still deeply in love that hurted me so badly but I didn't want to admit it...I really wish you would have believed me and sorry I made a comparison between you and him that made you sad but I was just being honest saying that he is my new you...if you know what I mean....I'm going to treat him how I wanted to treat you...but I still love you

 

Ok u say u love me but still its not the way i want to be loved but man its like karma cuz it seem like everything i did to u u is doin to me i see how u felt its jus killin me in the inside to kno that u tellin another boy other than me that u love him at the end of every conversation im happy 4 u but at the same time i hate seein u wit another boy not like jealousy though but its jus somethin like i kno it dont seem like i be thinkin bout u but i do more than ever no matter where im at or wat im doin u always on my mind every time i get on the computer every time i past yo school every time im in the park and on the bus stop well u get the clue u always on my mind thats how much i love u and im pretty sure that im never on yo mind only time im on yo mind is when u see a missed call from me or atleast thats wat it seems like i wish i cud spend every second of my life wit u i wish u was the one tellin me u love me every night be4 u go to sleep meme i love u and its like u dont care

I do care and I felt the same way when I tried to get back with you but you wouldn't let me...I know you couldn't have expected me to spend my life waiting on you...and yeah you do be on my mind,I do think about you alot sometimes because its something about you that I just cant seem to figure out,and I try to call you every chance I get but you never answer so I just go on and go to sleep or talk to DJ til' I get sleepy or he does. I can't believe you said it's like I don't care because I care more than you know...I want to spend the day with you tomorrow after colloquium...do you want to be with me after school tomorrow(Wednesday) from like 4 'til I leave??I've been trying to get in contact with you so we can spend time together but you never seem to answer..and I do love you but you're right it's not the way you want it...because I'm so deeply in love with DJ and I'm sorry if that makes you mad/sad or whatever emotion you feel but try to understand that if you wouldn't have turned me down that time in March it would be you I talk to every night and tell you that I love you all the time and you who I'm kissing and hugging ,you who I spend time with and you who arms I fall asleep in and ,you who kiss me on my forehead or cheek and whisper in my ear 'I love you' right before I fall asleep...but since you wouldn't give me a chance...it's DJ who I talk to everynight on the phone,DJ who I tell I love you to every time,it's DJ who I be kissing and hugging, it's DJ who arms I fall asleep in. it's DJ who kisses me on my forehead or cheek before I fall asleep and it's DJ who whisper in my ear telling me that he loves me....


Posted by dat-princess-chick at 8:52 AM EDT
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Friday, 15 August 2008
Jermel Saying....
Hey i jus needed to get this off my chest i really miss bein wit u i miss us bein as 1 its like with out u in my life its like somethin is missin its like a hole in my heart that needs to be filled i miss it bein meme melmel u kno i jus really love u and its like i never stop bein in love wit u even though i made it seem that way its jus sometimes i dont have a thing to say i miss tellin u i love u at night i miss kissin u on the lips and holdin u tight in my arms i even miss the lil arguements lol and when u asked me did i still like u i wanted to say yea so bad but to tell u the truth i was scared to say it cuz i didnt kno if i was ready to be serious again i really regret that i didnt give u a second chance it might not seem like it but i wanna be wit u i wanna be yo everything i wanna be the 1 thats on yo mind night and day and most of all i still want it to be dj but not dominique jeter i want it to be demetria and jermel and other words wud u reconsider bein my garfield baby LOE

Posted by dat-princess-chick at 8:43 AM EDT
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Tuesday, 12 August 2008
Headache
Mood:  down

The other day me and DJ was in my room and he kept trying to force hisself on me so I got mad and gave him back the ring he gave me and I thought we broke up so I was crying all night, but he camr to my house last night and we cool but we never really touch each other now and aren't comfortable!

 


Posted by dat-princess-chick at 12:37 PM EDT
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