Mood:  don't ask

Why try to change if others will not cooperate? I tried to change my attitude problem and it's been going fine until today! Boo-Boo pissed me off earlier we were arguing because the incident that happened yesterday with us throwing bottles and stuff and he had the nerves to cuss at me so I yelled at him then I had to go so I went away with an attitude and then he had the nerves to called Gerald ugly...when he is not so I was also mad about that.Then D.D made me mad by opening his mouth to say something that really wasn't needed that why we stay into it but I don't care! Sice I'm already onto the topic of the bad that have happened to me in the last couple of day I might as well tell what happened with Rayshawn. Yesterday I told him that I'd be back on the block at 7 so that we can be together and what not. So I went to the park with Lanica and Whitney Bullock~by the way Lanica ripped some boy shirt up there and it was so hilarious~but the point is that I got back on the block at like 7:15 only to find that he wasn't there.So I waited for like 10 minutes to see if he'll show up and when that didn't happen I went to Keunna house and I told her like Rayshawn stood me up and whatever then she like aint that him right there~I looked at I seen him with this other girl! So I walked off and then Keunna calls me like do you go with Rayshawn already so I'm like no and she say good because he's down here feeling on that girl but I wasn't tripping to much about that or anything so me, Karen, Whitney B.,and Lanica walked NKeita to Ashland and then we saw them boys  that Lanica ripped shirt and so they walked us to Morgan and when I get back on the block I saw Rayshawn with another girl! But I was like whatever!

But now that all the bad news out the way lets get to the good news~well me and Gerald spent alot of time together last night!I was with him from like 8 until 12:25! We walked Karen home and while her and Demarkis was by some tree in the park me and Gerald where in the tennis court sitting down and talking..he is very funny we act so much alike,it's so crazy. Before that we were at the end of my block on this like stoop thing just talking and constantly smiling and he kissed my hand and I kissed his cheek~but it aint go much farther than that!I may have wanted it to but then I don't want to rush things. But after the prk we were on my porch talking more and when it was time for him to go in the house he hugged me and we were hugging for a long time and while we were hugging he said I don't want to let go! That was so sweet and I was blushing like too hard but I also felt the same way.

Off the Gerald subject~I had fun outside with Lanica and Keunna these past day...I been seeing Lil Tye also....I think his brother Terrance is so cute but he only about to be like in 7th or 8th....too young! But I want Keunna to go with him!What else? Well let's see~I have to think~....well I went to church today and I asked Jay to sit next to me because I didn't want to sit by myself so he did and guess what? He asked me to be his girlfriend but that didn't happen and he got mad when I gave him the reasons which were that I have a boyfriend and that he talked to Kay-Kay...and he was mad at the fact that I thought him and Kay-Kay were together!

Mood:  on fire

Well today was an alright day but I am mad at Rayshawn because he a stunna and all...when he seen me today he didn't speak but at night he wanted to talk but I wasn't going!!!I don't have time for boys now maybe it's meant for me to be single because all these boys are goofys!!!But I had fun with him the other say when he was putting me in the rain~it was so much fun and plus he's so cute...but he still made me mad so...???!!!

 ~Single for long~                      

Princess

Mood:  sad

Today we had the game and all so I was thinking that I'll be seeing Lil Jearl~but so wrong was I!!! I didn't even see him and I was so crushed because I really wanted to see him...but I guess I'll have better luck next time~Hopefully!!! But other than that today I went outside with Keunna and Chardai and I also met this new guy but I don't want to get into it with him because he isn't my type~whatever that might be~and I also played basketball so it was an okay day I'll say!!!

~Not so good~                                                       

Princess

Mood:  happy

I can't wait until like 5 earlier today because we have a softball game so that means I may be seeing Lil Jearl~and by the way Tiara didn't go with him so that means he isn't off limits~I haven't seen him since Saturday!!!But today I went skating it was cool and all but  woke up late because I was talking to this guy named Jovon he is from San Diago and all plus he's very cute...and sweet I really like talking to him!!!

~Anxious~                                    

Princess

Mood:  a-ok

Oh my God~it feels like I haven't wrote in you since like forever!!!But no worries-I am back now!!! Alot has changed since the last entry....well me and Kabil is no more!!!I just felt more of friendship than a relationship with him so I told him today that I didn't want to go with him anymore but that doesn't mean that we aren't going to become friends!!! I am beginning to think life is worth the while and that there are things to live for!!! Well me and C.J aren't friends anymore because I feel that he is a waste of time.....and now I am about to hook up with this guy named Lil Jearl and all~I kind of think he acts like a kid and all but I figure that'll change in awhile!!!~But I really don't know whether to go with him or not because some people says that he went with Tiara and she means way more to me than any boy~she's just way too important to me and I wouldn't want to hook up with none of her ex or crushes.So that pretty much outlines this whole time since I haven't wrote in you!!

~Loving my life~                                                                                              Princess

Mood:  don't ask

Maybe I was wrong Kabil doesn't exactly keep me motivated because I been getting tired of him lately...but maybe it's my problem!!! I have to learn how to try and live my life so that I will not feel so empty inside and so lifeless....and I also have to better myself. Starting with my attitude.

~Kinda Confused~                                                                                           Princess 

Mood:  down

These last few days haven't been too fun~like always!!!Well D.D been getting on my nerves~me and him just got done arguing because he talk too much stuff....I be trying not to be disrespectful but I can't take  too much stuff from him I get so fed up with him!!! Then Patrice hasn't been no fun at all she is so lame and boring all she wants to do is watch movies and sleep!!! Alexis is a goofy so I aint going to write about how much of a kidd she is to me!!! I HATE MY LIFE!!! The only person that keeps me going day to day is Kabil because I really can talk to him and tell him about the problems going on with me~ I am so glad to have him in my life!!! He's the only person that I haven't been fed up with!!!

~Fed up with life~                                                                                           Princess

Mood:  down

Today was alright I guess my cousin Patrice is over here and we watched Pulse and some of the Fog plus 1408~they were pretty good movies!!! We went outside and Deleon was with us and of course they were all over each other it kind of bothered me but I understood why they were like that so I didn't trip about it!!! But I have a very bad issue. I feel very lonely and empty inside~I don't know what's wrong with me it's like at times I don't want to live anymore...no matter how much I may surround myself with all my friends I'll always feel that lonely emptiness I've been feeling for the last months!!! I don't know~I'm not hallucinating~my life seem perfectly fine when I think it through but I know in my mind and heart that there is something wrong with me!!! I just wish that empty hole will go away!!!

~Very Lonely~                                                                                            Princess

Mood:  spacey

Today has been such a boring day!!! All I did was get on the computer, watch t.v, talk on the phone, and do my laundry!!! I think this whole summer will be boring~ my friends steadily call and ask for me to come outside with them but it's not like I always enjoy being outdoors and besides there's really nothing to do out there and plus it's very dangerous!!! I guess I can go outside tomorrow because I told Chardai and Antawanna that I would and I don't want to seem like a liar to them!!! Well I guess that'll be all for today!!!

~Not fun at this time~                                          

Princess