Mood:  irritated

I just want to take the time out to not write about what I did today and just say what's from my heart! I honestly think that life is too short so I should just be with the person that makes me happy and Gerald just isn't making me happy right about now.What is the point of going with a person you never see or talk to when there is another person that you can see everyday and talk to everyday!!There isn't no point in that??I want more than just a weekend boyfriend, I want an all-around boyfriend...not just one that I see only on Friday's and Saturday's!! And every weekend isn't even promised that I'll see him so I just can't do it anymore because the last thing I said that I ever wanted was a long distance relationship and that's the reason I broke up with my last boyfriend and I don't want to just hop back into another one!Besides me and Gerald only has been a couple for 2 or 3 weks so it's not like we really got into anything serious so if I was to quit him for Rayshawn that wouldn't be real bad because he maybe isn't even really stunting me like that and I get the feeling that must not want to be with me if he never comes to see me. If there was a way I could go out west to see him,I would and there's no doubt about it but it's just too complicating.But I can't always get what I want and what I want isn't always what should be because maybe I am getting the wrong impression of Rayshawn thinking that he probably is exactly who I should be with...maybe I should think more about it.

~Just So Frustrated~

Princess

Mood:  happy

I am like so in trouble now. Well let me tell what had happened,it started out that me and Rayshawn was talking like always. Then we played basketball with Bri,then she got tired and went in the house. So we were sitting on the porch then he kissed me on my neck like 3 times. But I didn't know that would really lead to anything!!So we were standing up and so like usual he was holding me and like usual staring at me and so he then tried to find my spot so he started to kiss me on both sides of my neck. He couldn't decide which was my side so I told him it was my left so while he leaned against my porch I leaned on him while he sucked on my neck and all~it felt so good!!~Then he asked how do I kissed so I kissed him on his cheek and so he kissed me on my mines then he asked was that how I kissed and I was like yes and I asked him was that how he kissed he said no and I was like uh-huh he said what that suppose to mean so I said yeah right. Then I told him to show me how he kissed and he was about to then I put my hand in front of his lips and was like sike!! The he kissed me on my cheek again then kissed me on my lips~he is an alright kisser!!Then he was kissing me on my spot then he started back kissing me on my lips. So then he leaned against the porch again while I leaned on him and we started talking and he kissed me on my neck again then I was like it's about time I go in the house so he was like alright and so I hugged him and then we kissed but this time his kiss was too fye and then he said bye and I was like ok bye,when I got in the house I looked at the clock it said 3:20a.m!!I was like damn!!Then I went into the bathroom to check my neck and guess what??I HAVE A HICKIE!!So I washed it with alcohol and I am now holding a cold water bottle on it!!I hope it is gone tomorrow because D.D and then have a championship softball game and I would like to see itbut if it aint gone I will have to fake sick in bed tomorrow.I hope it is gone though. But I can't wait to tell Keunna!!!I will tell you what hapens tomorrow!!

~So happy~

Princess

Mood:  blue

Now all of a sudden I think that I am starting to like Rayshawn just when yesterday I just chilled while he was in my face while I gave him no play!! I don't know what to do because I go with Gerald and all,that's my baby but now I like Rayshawn also.I don't know which to choose!! I really want Rayshawn though because he's so cute, funny, I always see him,and I just like to be around him alot!!But I just can't leave Gerald because I like another guy I could be wrong about Rayshawn.

~Confused~

Princess

Mood:  flirty

Today was an alright day.I went to the park to watch the guys practice softball. Then when I got home I watched them all play basketball. The Rayshawn came to sit on the porch and talk to me. We talk all the way from 7 until 1!! We had a nice yime talking though!!

 ~Doing Fine~

Princess

Mood:  special

Well today was an alright day. The best part about it was that I talked to my baby Gerald!!We weren't talking about much though but he told me that he missed me and I told him that I missed him too and I really meant it when I said that because I went a whole week and 2 days without seeing him!!He aint so boring to talk to on the phone but he aint so fun to talk to but I can't wait to see him Friday!!

~Ever so happy~

Princess

Mood:  a-ok

Well today was an alright day. I went to Karen game at Ogden Park but they lost by 24 points the score was 26to 4!!!I know that sucks!! Then we went to church it was alright. Then we went to Lil Tye house afterwards! And back home. So that's all I did and now Keunna and me are back friends only because her mom asked me to come down to their hpuse so we can talk!!!

~An alright day~

Princess

Mood:  don't ask

Today was a very boring day all I did was wake up get on the computer. Then watch t.v, take a bath, and get on the phone!!! That was it but Whitney B. and Lanica came over. But tomorrow I expect to have a better day. I really had an intriguing dream last nigh though it was about Jay kissing me and Gerald caught us kissing but it was a misunderstanding Jay was trying to break me and Gerald up so he kissed me then Gerald didn't talk to me for 7 days. Then one day Malcolm call me and so we went outside together and I tell him what happens then he tries to kiss me also but I slapped him and walked away. The I called Gerald and this time he answer so I meet him at Bondschool playground so that we can talk....so I tell him the truth then we go back to my house and starts kissing then we get to my room and I'm pretty sure you can guess what else happens from then on.......!!!It was not a bad dream but also not a good dream!But I don't play on making none of it come to a reality though!!!

 ~Bored today~

Princess

Mood:  a-ok

Today was an okay day I guess. I went to Karen house and we went up to Ogden Park because she had a game~I watched it and all they were playing Oglesby and they won because the coach on the other team forfeited out of anger.  Then when the game was over Karen went home to change then we went to my house to get some money to go to the store and when we got back on the block we went to Demarkis house but he was at the park so we went up there only to find out that we had a softball game so me and Karen stayed up there and we won the game. After we left we went to the basketball court then back to my house for a minute and after that we went to Lil Tye house. Tye,me,Karen, and Terrance walked to Bondschool playground after like 20 minutes there we went to sit on the steps of the school. Then we walked back to their house and left back to go on my block. But it was boring over on my block so we went to Keunna house but I didn't say anything to her because I am not her friend anymore because she stood me up. She the only reason I got dressed to go outside because she said she wanted to go outside with me but when I went to pick her up she had already went outside with Lanica. But she called me like 30 minues ago but I aint answering.That basically covers my whole day.

~Sincerely~

Princess

Mood:  don't ask

Why try to change if others will not cooperate? I tried to change my attitude problem and it's been going fine until today! Boo-Boo pissed me off earlier we were arguing because the incident that happened yesterday with us throwing bottles and stuff and he had the nerves to cuss at me so I yelled at him then I had to go so I went away with an attitude and then he had the nerves to called Gerald ugly...when he is not so I was also mad about that.Then D.D made me mad by opening his mouth to say something that really wasn't needed that why we stay into it but I don't care! Sice I'm already onto the topic of the bad that have happened to me in the last couple of day I might as well tell what happened with Rayshawn. Yesterday I told him that I'd be back on the block at 7 so that we can be together and what not. So I went to the park with Lanica and Whitney Bullock~by the way Lanica ripped some boy shirt up there and it was so hilarious~but the point is that I got back on the block at like 7:15 only to find that he wasn't there.So I waited for like 10 minutes to see if he'll show up and when that didn't happen I went to Keunna house and I told her like Rayshawn stood me up and whatever then she like aint that him right there~I looked at I seen him with this other girl! So I walked off and then Keunna calls me like do you go with Rayshawn already so I'm like no and she say good because he's down here feeling on that girl but I wasn't tripping to much about that or anything so me, Karen, Whitney B.,and Lanica walked NKeita to Ashland and then we saw them boys  that Lanica ripped shirt and so they walked us to Morgan and when I get back on the block I saw Rayshawn with another girl! But I was like whatever!

But now that all the bad news out the way lets get to the good news~well me and Gerald spent alot of time together last night!I was with him from like 8 until 12:25! We walked Karen home and while her and Demarkis was by some tree in the park me and Gerald where in the tennis court sitting down and talking..he is very funny we act so much alike,it's so crazy. Before that we were at the end of my block on this like stoop thing just talking and constantly smiling and he kissed my hand and I kissed his cheek~but it aint go much farther than that!I may have wanted it to but then I don't want to rush things. But after the prk we were on my porch talking more and when it was time for him to go in the house he hugged me and we were hugging for a long time and while we were hugging he said I don't want to let go! That was so sweet and I was blushing like too hard but I also felt the same way.

Off the Gerald subject~I had fun outside with Lanica and Keunna these past day...I been seeing Lil Tye also....I think his brother Terrance is so cute but he only about to be like in 7th or 8th....too young! But I want Keunna to go with him!What else? Well let's see~I have to think~....well I went to church today and I asked Jay to sit next to me because I didn't want to sit by myself so he did and guess what? He asked me to be his girlfriend but that didn't happen and he got mad when I gave him the reasons which were that I have a boyfriend and that he talked to Kay-Kay...and he was mad at the fact that I thought him and Kay-Kay were together!