Mood:  surprised

Well I talked to Rayshawn and so we were outside until 12:25 because that's when my mom came and told me to come in. We kissed all and he kissed me on my hand,cheek,lips,and neck!! He was sitting on my lap and was trying to kiss all on my cheek and neck so I told him to sit next to me and that's when we were kissing each other. When he left I told him to call me and when we were talking he told me that he loves me and that I'm all he got I was so shocked but yet kind of disappointed because I sort of don't believe him it's too early for all this and he said that he thinks I am perfect but I am not going to jump heads over heals about this because he maybe just trying to get in my head. I think he may be that psycho type that says if it aint him I'm with than there's nobody else and try to hurt me when I try to break up with him,I get this thought because he said that there is no breaking up with him and that we are going to be together forever honestly I think he obsessed and insane, I will be scared when the time comes to break up.

~So Shocked~

Princess

Mood:  sad

I aint got nothing to say to Rayshawn because he came walking down the street with Mia from the park and my family was all right there and so they looking like Me-Me aint that your boyfriend and I found that so disrespectful. Who ever said that you get out what you put in is so wrong because I put my all into this and look what I get back!! Maybe being single is the best way to go about this whole situation because I don't want to go any further with Rayshawn only to get hurt more than I am hurting now,so I should just leave it alone for the time being!Like some say only time can heal the pain...to clarify this all I am not hurting that he was with another girl,it's just that my family was there to watch it all. Maybe I am just taking this more seriously than it really is,or am I?? I really don't know,only time will tell!!

~Not So Good~

Princess

Well let me see...I don't know where I last left off at so let me write what I think I left off at...well  I go with Rayshawn now because I decided to give him a chance and all...we hooked up over the phone,he asked will I be his girl so I said I guess and then he asked what did that mean and so I said yes and that's how we hooked up and we stayed on the phone all that night.Yesterday I went to the libraray with Chardai, Karen, Demakis, Kelsey, and Rayshawn.When we got on the block Rayshawn went down the street and I went in the house then came back out with Rayshawn until 12:30...that's what happened yesterday. Today I went to the park with Rayshawn and then I sat in Mrs.Collier car and read this book and then went to go eat and went back and was with Rayshawn until 12:30....and now it's 2:26 and on the phone with Chardai....that's all!!!

~Doing good~

Princess

Mood:  d'oh

Well I didn't get the chance to tell Rayshawn how I felt because I didn't see him today. But I am hoping that I see him tomorrow and that he walks me to the library so we can talk and all and be alone,hopefuly that works out as planned but if that doesn't work out then I will find out another way t go about it.

~Hopeful~

Princess

Mood:  flirty

Today was an interesting day.Dee-Dee was barbequing and I was playing basketball and I was with Rayshawn.But my mom and Dee-Dee was making me mad when they were questioning Rayshawn it was embarrassing. But then we talked and he left with Lydell to go somewhere so I came in the house to eat some chicken and it was raining so they came back on my porch so I went out there to talk to him.So we were talking and I sat down in the chair and so he said that he wanted to sit too and so I scooted over and he knocked me off it and told me to sit on his lap so I did for about 5 minutes. Then I got up and so did he so I sat in the chair and he sat on my lap this time and at first we were staring at eac other then he bit me o my cheek so I tried to bite him back but we whind up kissing and then after we were done I bit him back on his cheek.Then I showed him the hickey he gave me the other day and he started to suck on my neck again but I pushed him away then he kissed me on my cheek like 3 times and sucked it then we kissed again for like 5 minutes~that kiss was banging~but then i gave him a hug goodbye!!But when I got in the house I looked at the mirror and now I have another hickey on my neck and plus one on my left cheek!!!I am so in trouble!!!

~So mad~

Princess

Mood:  irritated

I just want to take the time out to not write about what I did today and just say what's from my heart! I honestly think that life is too short so I should just be with the person that makes me happy and Gerald just isn't making me happy right about now.What is the point of going with a person you never see or talk to when there is another person that you can see everyday and talk to everyday!!There isn't no point in that??I want more than just a weekend boyfriend, I want an all-around boyfriend...not just one that I see only on Friday's and Saturday's!! And every weekend isn't even promised that I'll see him so I just can't do it anymore because the last thing I said that I ever wanted was a long distance relationship and that's the reason I broke up with my last boyfriend and I don't want to just hop back into another one!Besides me and Gerald only has been a couple for 2 or 3 weks so it's not like we really got into anything serious so if I was to quit him for Rayshawn that wouldn't be real bad because he maybe isn't even really stunting me like that and I get the feeling that must not want to be with me if he never comes to see me. If there was a way I could go out west to see him,I would and there's no doubt about it but it's just too complicating.But I can't always get what I want and what I want isn't always what should be because maybe I am getting the wrong impression of Rayshawn thinking that he probably is exactly who I should be with...maybe I should think more about it.

~Just So Frustrated~

Princess

Mood:  happy

I am like so in trouble now. Well let me tell what had happened,it started out that me and Rayshawn was talking like always. Then we played basketball with Bri,then she got tired and went in the house. So we were sitting on the porch then he kissed me on my neck like 3 times. But I didn't know that would really lead to anything!!So we were standing up and so like usual he was holding me and like usual staring at me and so he then tried to find my spot so he started to kiss me on both sides of my neck. He couldn't decide which was my side so I told him it was my left so while he leaned against my porch I leaned on him while he sucked on my neck and all~it felt so good!!~Then he asked how do I kissed so I kissed him on his cheek and so he kissed me on my mines then he asked was that how I kissed and I was like yes and I asked him was that how he kissed he said no and I was like uh-huh he said what that suppose to mean so I said yeah right. Then I told him to show me how he kissed and he was about to then I put my hand in front of his lips and was like sike!! The he kissed me on my cheek again then kissed me on my lips~he is an alright kisser!!Then he was kissing me on my spot then he started back kissing me on my lips. So then he leaned against the porch again while I leaned on him and we started talking and he kissed me on my neck again then I was like it's about time I go in the house so he was like alright and so I hugged him and then we kissed but this time his kiss was too fye and then he said bye and I was like ok bye,when I got in the house I looked at the clock it said 3:20a.m!!I was like damn!!Then I went into the bathroom to check my neck and guess what??I HAVE A HICKIE!!So I washed it with alcohol and I am now holding a cold water bottle on it!!I hope it is gone tomorrow because D.D and then have a championship softball game and I would like to see itbut if it aint gone I will have to fake sick in bed tomorrow.I hope it is gone though. But I can't wait to tell Keunna!!!I will tell you what hapens tomorrow!!

~So happy~

Princess

Mood:  blue

Now all of a sudden I think that I am starting to like Rayshawn just when yesterday I just chilled while he was in my face while I gave him no play!! I don't know what to do because I go with Gerald and all,that's my baby but now I like Rayshawn also.I don't know which to choose!! I really want Rayshawn though because he's so cute, funny, I always see him,and I just like to be around him alot!!But I just can't leave Gerald because I like another guy I could be wrong about Rayshawn.

~Confused~

Princess

Mood:  flirty

Today was an alright day.I went to the park to watch the guys practice softball. Then when I got home I watched them all play basketball. The Rayshawn came to sit on the porch and talk to me. We talk all the way from 7 until 1!! We had a nice yime talking though!!

 ~Doing Fine~

Princess