Mood:  d'oh

Well I didn't get the chance to tell Rayshawn how I felt because I didn't see him today. But I am hoping that I see him tomorrow and that he walks me to the library so we can talk and all and be alone,hopefuly that works out as planned but if that doesn't work out then I will find out another way t go about it.

~Hopeful~

Princess

Mood:  flirty

Today was an interesting day.Dee-Dee was barbequing and I was playing basketball and I was with Rayshawn.But my mom and Dee-Dee was making me mad when they were questioning Rayshawn it was embarrassing. But then we talked and he left with Lydell to go somewhere so I came in the house to eat some chicken and it was raining so they came back on my porch so I went out there to talk to him.So we were talking and I sat down in the chair and so he said that he wanted to sit too and so I scooted over and he knocked me off it and told me to sit on his lap so I did for about 5 minutes. Then I got up and so did he so I sat in the chair and he sat on my lap this time and at first we were staring at eac other then he bit me o my cheek so I tried to bite him back but we whind up kissing and then after we were done I bit him back on his cheek.Then I showed him the hickey he gave me the other day and he started to suck on my neck again but I pushed him away then he kissed me on my cheek like 3 times and sucked it then we kissed again for like 5 minutes~that kiss was banging~but then i gave him a hug goodbye!!But when I got in the house I looked at the mirror and now I have another hickey on my neck and plus one on my left cheek!!!I am so in trouble!!!

~So mad~

Princess

Mood:  irritated

I just want to take the time out to not write about what I did today and just say what's from my heart! I honestly think that life is too short so I should just be with the person that makes me happy and Gerald just isn't making me happy right about now.What is the point of going with a person you never see or talk to when there is another person that you can see everyday and talk to everyday!!There isn't no point in that??I want more than just a weekend boyfriend, I want an all-around boyfriend...not just one that I see only on Friday's and Saturday's!! And every weekend isn't even promised that I'll see him so I just can't do it anymore because the last thing I said that I ever wanted was a long distance relationship and that's the reason I broke up with my last boyfriend and I don't want to just hop back into another one!Besides me and Gerald only has been a couple for 2 or 3 weks so it's not like we really got into anything serious so if I was to quit him for Rayshawn that wouldn't be real bad because he maybe isn't even really stunting me like that and I get the feeling that must not want to be with me if he never comes to see me. If there was a way I could go out west to see him,I would and there's no doubt about it but it's just too complicating.But I can't always get what I want and what I want isn't always what should be because maybe I am getting the wrong impression of Rayshawn thinking that he probably is exactly who I should be with...maybe I should think more about it.

~Just So Frustrated~

Princess

Mood:  happy

I am like so in trouble now. Well let me tell what had happened,it started out that me and Rayshawn was talking like always. Then we played basketball with Bri,then she got tired and went in the house. So we were sitting on the porch then he kissed me on my neck like 3 times. But I didn't know that would really lead to anything!!So we were standing up and so like usual he was holding me and like usual staring at me and so he then tried to find my spot so he started to kiss me on both sides of my neck. He couldn't decide which was my side so I told him it was my left so while he leaned against my porch I leaned on him while he sucked on my neck and all~it felt so good!!~Then he asked how do I kissed so I kissed him on his cheek and so he kissed me on my mines then he asked was that how I kissed and I was like yes and I asked him was that how he kissed he said no and I was like uh-huh he said what that suppose to mean so I said yeah right. Then I told him to show me how he kissed and he was about to then I put my hand in front of his lips and was like sike!! The he kissed me on my cheek again then kissed me on my lips~he is an alright kisser!!Then he was kissing me on my spot then he started back kissing me on my lips. So then he leaned against the porch again while I leaned on him and we started talking and he kissed me on my neck again then I was like it's about time I go in the house so he was like alright and so I hugged him and then we kissed but this time his kiss was too fye and then he said bye and I was like ok bye,when I got in the house I looked at the clock it said 3:20a.m!!I was like damn!!Then I went into the bathroom to check my neck and guess what??I HAVE A HICKIE!!So I washed it with alcohol and I am now holding a cold water bottle on it!!I hope it is gone tomorrow because D.D and then have a championship softball game and I would like to see itbut if it aint gone I will have to fake sick in bed tomorrow.I hope it is gone though. But I can't wait to tell Keunna!!!I will tell you what hapens tomorrow!!

~So happy~

Princess

Mood:  blue

Now all of a sudden I think that I am starting to like Rayshawn just when yesterday I just chilled while he was in my face while I gave him no play!! I don't know what to do because I go with Gerald and all,that's my baby but now I like Rayshawn also.I don't know which to choose!! I really want Rayshawn though because he's so cute, funny, I always see him,and I just like to be around him alot!!But I just can't leave Gerald because I like another guy I could be wrong about Rayshawn.

~Confused~

Princess

Mood:  flirty

Today was an alright day.I went to the park to watch the guys practice softball. Then when I got home I watched them all play basketball. The Rayshawn came to sit on the porch and talk to me. We talk all the way from 7 until 1!! We had a nice yime talking though!!

 ~Doing Fine~

Princess

Mood:  special

Well today was an alright day. The best part about it was that I talked to my baby Gerald!!We weren't talking about much though but he told me that he missed me and I told him that I missed him too and I really meant it when I said that because I went a whole week and 2 days without seeing him!!He aint so boring to talk to on the phone but he aint so fun to talk to but I can't wait to see him Friday!!

~Ever so happy~

Princess

Mood:  a-ok

Well today was an alright day. I went to Karen game at Ogden Park but they lost by 24 points the score was 26to 4!!!I know that sucks!! Then we went to church it was alright. Then we went to Lil Tye house afterwards! And back home. So that's all I did and now Keunna and me are back friends only because her mom asked me to come down to their hpuse so we can talk!!!

~An alright day~

Princess

Mood:  don't ask

Today was a very boring day all I did was wake up get on the computer. Then watch t.v, take a bath, and get on the phone!!! That was it but Whitney B. and Lanica came over. But tomorrow I expect to have a better day. I really had an intriguing dream last nigh though it was about Jay kissing me and Gerald caught us kissing but it was a misunderstanding Jay was trying to break me and Gerald up so he kissed me then Gerald didn't talk to me for 7 days. Then one day Malcolm call me and so we went outside together and I tell him what happens then he tries to kiss me also but I slapped him and walked away. The I called Gerald and this time he answer so I meet him at Bondschool playground so that we can talk....so I tell him the truth then we go back to my house and starts kissing then we get to my room and I'm pretty sure you can guess what else happens from then on.......!!!It was not a bad dream but also not a good dream!But I don't play on making none of it come to a reality though!!!

 ~Bored today~

Princess