Well these last days has been easy on I guess....I think of Raysawn less than usual now I think that he doesn't deserve my time any more and I shouldn't set myself up for a break down so that's why I don't allow myself to think of or about him. He came over my house Saturday but I simply just told him that I am through with him for good and I was serious.I am tired of being in relationship nows only to get hurt so I will just build a shield over my heart and now no guy will ever be able to get in it again to be able to hurt it. But I have bigger problems than boys right now: Carol has asked for her earring and I only found one and I can't find the other one, I pray to God I will find it in the morning because those were her favorite earrings and I don't want to make her mad so God if you are reading this please allow me to be able to find the missing earring in the morning when I search for it!

Fast Fact:I think I just maybe give Doc cousin~Jermel~a try!!

~In Trouble,Hopefully not~

Princess

Mood:  down

Today was kind of a rough day in a way.First Demarkis told me he saw Rayshawn talking to some girl at his house,then my mom told me she saw him all over some girl at the 68th bus stop, and I seen him at the park holding a different girl hand so I am officially through with him but that doesn't mean I don't think of him,honestly I do but they all aren't good thoughts,but other than Rayshawn business ...we went school shopping and allit was nice. Then I went to the park for like 4 hours with Lanica and Kijuanna...I messed with so many boys but I think I just maybe get with the boys whose shirt I took off lastnight because we were talking today. The Dee-Dee barbequed because it was his birthday and all and everybody drank and everything it was a nice night!!

Fast Fact:Lydell tried to talk to her and lied and said he was 17 when Nikki said he was 19!!

~Feeling Down~

Princess

Mood:  happy

Today was such a fun day as for me!!Well me and Demarkis went outside together for ahwile.....we wentto Malcolm's house but he wasn't home...then to Karen house but her mom said she was at Danisha's home so we went there but Danisha wasn't there so we went to the park where Lanica and Kijuanna was. So we chilled there for awhile at the basketball court I seen Rayshawn there but he aint see me. Then after awhile we started to get bored and was about to go back on the block thenwe changed our minds but Demarkis left,so we went to the court again and was messing with boys...this one boy asked me to take his shirt off fo him so I did and he had such a sexy banging body..oh my lord it was too fine...and he was my age if only I wasn't faithful me and him would have been on to something but I decided to be like UNK and just "walk it out"....lol but when I got back on the block I was at Rayshawn house then we went to the abandoned porch and chilled there for like 2 hours. Then we went to my porch and talked, laughed, joked around and everything. But he made me want to cry when he bit my bottom lip because that hurted so bad but he made it feel a little better when he sucked on it...lol.... that's not being fast!!Or is it?? Well we had fun together we kissed a couple of time and all. Around 12:09 a.m is when I got in the house since my curfew is at 12:00 a.m.....but tomorrow I am suppose to go get him at 3:00 p.m sowe can go outside together and be with each other all day!!!

Fast Fact:Lanca is talking to Meechie

~Feeling Good~

Princess

Mood:  sad

Today was a nice day except toward the end of the day. When I woke up Nikki asked me to come with her and Shavon up to her school so she can pick up her check. On our drive back home we had a nice conversation, when we got back on the block I just sat in Ms.Collier car and read my book "Doube Dutch" but I didnt get too far because they were packing up their stuff getting ready to leave because it was about to rain. Then Shavon, Nikki, and I went to Evergreen Plaza Mall. Nikkie brought her some shirt and 2 pairs of shoes, Shavon got brought 2 shirts but got an extra one because I couldn't fit it, I only got 2 shirts. On our way home we went to Popeyes for my mom and when I got home I just sat on the porch with Rayshawn then when I got in the house to use the washroom my mom cell phone fell into the toilet and now it doesn't work and I feel very bad about that.

~Very Sorry~

Princess

Mood:  sad

I just have to get this off my stress before it goes to my head and make things more difficult than it has to be. I was firstly tempted to break-up with Rayshawn when he came walking up with Mia and walked off with her. But then it got worst as I talked to his little sister and she told me all this stuff about him saying this girl named Katrina being his main girl and all the other girls were just his hoes!! She also said some other stuff that I can't even think of at the moment! But when I saw him I just lokked at im and he asked why was I looking like that but I didn't say anything then he walked up to me and grabbed my hand o I told him to let me go but he wouldn't until I told him why he should so I said it was over and he asked why and I was like because he has another girl and that he was wasting my time and he was like he don't have no other girl and I was like I know you do and her name starts with a C or K and he was like Katrina??I was like yeah if that's her name and then he said he don't go with her and he hates her. The Demarkis walked up so we walked off and talked then I went home and then to Vale car and read my book and called Chardai and C.J. Then I sat on my porch and read the book then I tried to go play basketball and Rayshawn followed me and knocked the ball out of my hand and when I tried to walk away he grabbed me and held me and was saying alot of stuff like I can't break up with him over her and that she's a bitch and that he wouldn't do me like that and that I am his only girl and a bunch of stuff like that then he was trying to kiss all on me but I wouldn't The at like 12:00a.m my mom said it was time for me to come in because it was getting late then I told him to walk me to my door and so he did and had his arm around my shoulder and when we got to my house he said that he would never do me like that and that he really likes me and asked for me to call him in 15 minutes....so I called him but his sister said he wasn't home but I guess we can talk about it tomorrow.

~Calm~

Princess

Mood:  a-ok

It's about time I write about how my days went now because all I been writing about lately is me and Rayshawn although he is always included in my day! Well I woke up late at 4:00 p.m when I suppose to had got up at 2:00 p.m so that me and Chardai can hang out. But then I got dressed and read my book The Twisted Window and talked to Demarkis for a little bit.The I got on the computer and Lanica,Kijuanna, and Brainna came over so I went outside to talk to them for about 20 minutes just joking around.Then I got back on the computer and then went outside to talk to Rayshawn then he went to Matthew's house so I got on the phone to talk to Tiara but she had school so I called Malcolm and we talked for awhile until Rayshawn walked up playing and hung up on him.Well to shorten this up I stayed outside with Rayshawn until 12:00a.m then when I got in the house I ate a pizza puff and got on the computer and Rayshawn called me and we talked for about an our and he got sleepy so I said I will go to his house tomorrow at 4:30 p.m.Then I called Kabil and we talked for some time until the hpone hung up on him because today it got cut of...I know that so boogish. Oh yeah, C.J called me but I hung up on him I am like so over him no more tears coming from my eyes to cry over him...I am better than that.But now I am IMing Dari

~Doing Better Now~

Princess

Mood:  surprised

Well I talked to Rayshawn and so we were outside until 12:25 because that's when my mom came and told me to come in. We kissed all and he kissed me on my hand,cheek,lips,and neck!! He was sitting on my lap and was trying to kiss all on my cheek and neck so I told him to sit next to me and that's when we were kissing each other. When he left I told him to call me and when we were talking he told me that he loves me and that I'm all he got I was so shocked but yet kind of disappointed because I sort of don't believe him it's too early for all this and he said that he thinks I am perfect but I am not going to jump heads over heals about this because he maybe just trying to get in my head. I think he may be that psycho type that says if it aint him I'm with than there's nobody else and try to hurt me when I try to break up with him,I get this thought because he said that there is no breaking up with him and that we are going to be together forever honestly I think he obsessed and insane, I will be scared when the time comes to break up.

~So Shocked~

Princess

Mood:  sad

I aint got nothing to say to Rayshawn because he came walking down the street with Mia from the park and my family was all right there and so they looking like Me-Me aint that your boyfriend and I found that so disrespectful. Who ever said that you get out what you put in is so wrong because I put my all into this and look what I get back!! Maybe being single is the best way to go about this whole situation because I don't want to go any further with Rayshawn only to get hurt more than I am hurting now,so I should just leave it alone for the time being!Like some say only time can heal the pain...to clarify this all I am not hurting that he was with another girl,it's just that my family was there to watch it all. Maybe I am just taking this more seriously than it really is,or am I?? I really don't know,only time will tell!!

~Not So Good~

Princess

Well let me see...I don't know where I last left off at so let me write what I think I left off at...well  I go with Rayshawn now because I decided to give him a chance and all...we hooked up over the phone,he asked will I be his girl so I said I guess and then he asked what did that mean and so I said yes and that's how we hooked up and we stayed on the phone all that night.Yesterday I went to the libraray with Chardai, Karen, Demakis, Kelsey, and Rayshawn.When we got on the block Rayshawn went down the street and I went in the house then came back out with Rayshawn until 12:30...that's what happened yesterday. Today I went to the park with Rayshawn and then I sat in Mrs.Collier car and read this book and then went to go eat and went back and was with Rayshawn until 12:30....and now it's 2:26 and on the phone with Chardai....that's all!!!

~Doing good~

Princess